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February 05, 2008.

An unwanted feeling. Since school started today, I felt so weird. My energy drain, dark in me. Dj was worried about it but I know it will pass, like always. Even now, its still there. I was a bit meaner this week. I was cruel to my Matt. And I hissed and growled at a few people today. I think the time of evil and darkness is coming again. I feel hatred slowly crawling to the surface: saying things without thinking, being cruel to almost everyone, complaining about the world of idiots, and hissing plus growling. No it’s not the time of the month. It’s the time of darkness. It comes every once in awhile especially when I’m overstress, worried, or anything negative feelings. I can’t do much when I feel this way. It bugs me a lot. Like yesterday, Matt and I were doing great until that feeling came. I wanted to be with him right now. He always makes me feel better when I feel like crap. I am writing in my fairy journal again. Getting all the things in school so in it. I’ll write some of it on here and some other things too. I need to work so I have to go for now.