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Faith brought us together but we have to keep it together.

I told him of a past that shouldn’t exist. I feel worry that I upset him. He thought I hate him and never wanted to speak to him again. I can’t hate him or never talk to him again. It would it hurt if I did. I told him not the worry but he blames himself. Part of me wished I never told him and lie about it. The other part of me is glad I told someone of it. I can truly trust him as can they. I want to be there to tell him face to face that it doesn’t bother as much as it use to. I want him to forget it. I know it hurt him. Even when he said it doesn’t bother him, I know it does. I know he change the subject to tell me not to worry but I can’t help it. I know he is thinking of it now. I know he will be thinking of it all day, even the next time we talk. He will be cautious of what he says and does. I don’t want him to feel hurt or regret. I want him to feel glad and happy. I wish I was at his side to comfort him, to tell him I’m okay with it. I want to. Seeing him like this hurts me a lot. Please help me reach him.