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My Dark Life
The things I write but don't speak.
why? why is happening?
*yawn and stretches* i'm so glad it is finally the weekend. Thie week seem too long and strange. Okay the thing is I'm usually quiet in school and i can easily hide my real emotions (i had a lot of practice)but lately i have been quite the opposite. I have been talking a lot more, letting things slip though my lip that i didn't want to say out loud, and my emotional states is becoming off balance cry . Usually i'm neutral in that area but lately it is changing. 2 day ago when i was laying in my bed in the middle of the night, tears ran down my face and sadness and lonelyness took in. I don't know were it came from or why but it did and it's sad because i was starting to doubt a lot of things. Started to blame someone for that feeling. Then my heart started to ache when i thought of any of the two i love the most. How they seem so distant andhow i never talk to them like i use. Its sad and it hurts.I don't know what to do. crying crying . I'm scared of what the future might bring. Will we become so distant that we don't remember the other's existents. Just thinking about it makes my body turn into ice. I never thought or even cared about the future as long as i have them but.....but....
sorry for writing it hear but i need to vent some way.
*weak smile* i think i will give them a call tomorrow *looks at clock* or today since it is 1:37am. And talk to them about whats on my min, well, if they answer or if i don't chicken out or calm up abou it. sweatdrop





 
 
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