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"The only way to go from here, is up..."

So, during my absence from Gaia, I've graduated college, been dating the same guy for two years now, and, have a job. Life could be better but, I can't really complain. In due time, it will be better. Right now, is, well, just a prelude for whats to come.

Not much has happened from that. I mean, I did get my driver's license, finally. And, I've been saving up to move out of my parents house. It's hard relying on others and not having your own things. Lord knows I want my own car and place. I feel so exhilarated when I go shopping alone and on my own time. Or when I'm at my boyfriend's apartment alone. Things like that are just teasers...a tantalizing taste of what it'll eventually be like. I want it all nooooooowwwwwww... But, I know I wouldn't be able to handle it. Now on my minimum wage salary and with my spending habits. Money practically burns in my fingertips. My bank account can barely keep up with me. I may have a shopping problem. And, a Starbucks addiction. And, a few other issues... But, that's neither here nor there...

So, two years, I've been with the same guy. I'm really happy. Even when he pisses me off beyond belief, I can't help but love him still when it's all over. We bring out the best in each other, and really try to fix each other worst parts. For me, it's my anger. For him, its impatience. We're both works in progress and we admit that. But most importantly: we both accept and realize that no one is perfect. Now I'm just rambling. I guess, I can't put in words just how happy I am with him. Our two years together have been a real adventure, filled with ups, downs, diagonals, zig-zags..etc. still, here were are, two years later. I can't stop smiling whenever I think about it. This is probably the happiest I've ever been with, well, anyone. But more important than that, is the fact that it can only get better from here.

As for the last guy. We don't talk much. All of a sudden he's a photographer and has tattoos. He's still the same person. Just a monkey with a camera....that wasn't very nice but, I'm not taking it back. It's how I feel. Tomorrow is his birthday. And out of pure, niceness, I want to say Happy Birthday but, idk if it'll be genuine. Or taken wrong...he's weird like that...maybe I'm just weird like that...I don't know....it feels weird that he's who he is now. The same, yet different. While I'm, well, different. Trying to make this all make sense is rather frustrating so, I'm just going to get off this topic. I just wanted to give a life update since i haven't done this in such a long time.

Ok, here's the synopsis in case all the other stuff didn't make sense:
1. I have a job.
2. My bf and I have been together for 2 years now, and we're going on strong.
3. I've got my driver's license.
4. My ex person of sorts and I will probably never be friends. And I honestly have no idea who he is anymore, yet, he's still the same twit he was before I left him alone. But now, he's a monkey with a camera so, I guess he's not all the complete same...
5. My life, in a complete shell, is pretty good and sturdy. I'm happy, in good health and pretty optimistic.

"The only way to go from here, is up..."