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So, I dropped the zero and got with a number one ^_^.

Well, I got fed up with being angry and the silent treatment so, I dropped his a** and went for someone else. Yaye ^_^. But, I do feel bad, sad, mad, etc., all because that wasn't how I wanted things to end between us but, it's whatever now since, well, I'm with someone else.

Still haven't heard from him, spoke to him, made any efforts to hear or speak to him so, yeah, just living my life and moving forward as best I can. Yes, it does hurt still, and yes, a part of me does want/miss him but, I'm gunna get out that, eventually. And hopefully because my new guy is here and I want to give him all of me. It sucks because I feel like my heart is split in half. Hopefully though, it will mend itself back together and be on the right page because, I don't want to have to cut the new relationship short because I can't get that b*****d of an ex out from under my skin.

It feels so nice to have everyone be so happy for me, and my new guy, and for me to be happy for me. Yet, at the same damn time I just can't get that other dimwit out of my head. I hate that there was no closure between us, yet, I know that if I speak to him now, nothing good will be said. And, chances are, I'd fall right back into old habits/a trap because that's what always happens. Well, hopefully one day, we will talk again, and it will be good, and things will work out. But, til then, things will just remain as they are and I will just have to suck it up and get the ******** over it....just sayin'. ^_^

"Dropped the zero, and ended up with a number one hero" ^_^ lol.