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someday, my life will change completely. I'll meet that guy that I've always dreamed of. I'll get away from here and be me. and maybe someday, everything will end by my hands. odd isn't it? to think of things as going to change? at times, it makes me sad. it'll never be the same. still, I hope that things do change eventually. maybe someday, I'll be able to be near my bestfriends. for now, they're going to be far away. maybe something's wrong with me. but maybe not. I must admit I feel strange. I haven't felt like this in a long time, or maybe I've never felt like this. there's something I haven't felt before, and if I have felt it, then I've forgotten...freedom...it's so strange. I'm 15. I'm a teenager. teenagers are supposed to do tons of crazy things so that they can experience freedom. for me, the crazy thing is join sites so that I have a chance to show the real me. that's freedom in a sense. but, it just doesn't work. I don't like the real me, to be honest. so now whenever I join a site, all I want is for people to see a me that's not real. I want people to see the person I wish I was. I want people to think I'm beautiful. I want people to think I'm smart, but none of that's true. sure, some think I'm great on the inside and so do I...like I said. I'm strange. but also, my brain feels like it's full of helium which may be the cause of this freaky feeling...anyways, I'm in a weird mood. and so I shall say what's floating in my brain...cheese muffins... ... ...that's all I'm getting. cheese muffins....now I know there's something wrong with me xd sweatdrop rofl wahmbulance goodbye! heart
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