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Last Sunday, I did something that I thought I would never do. The Friday before it, my friend, Kiva, and I were discussing different things. The thing I remember most about the convo was this...
(background before I say part of the convo) Kiva and I go to the same school. we go to a christian private school in the southeast somewhere (I won't say where). we both also go to church (not the same one). you'd think, we're Christians right? wrong.
we discussed that there was a difference between my religion and my practices. my religion was Christianity but that didn't make me a Christian.
Last Sunday, that changed. I gave my heart to Jesus last Sunday. before, I'd thought I'd done that, but I was wrong. I had a wonderful feeling in my heart then the next morning it would be gone. Not this time. I feel the wonder, pleasure, peace, and no stress like I used to but this time...it stayed. it's now Tuesday night and I still feel something in my heart. I'm acting better and I'm realising there're things I may have to give up. but you know what? I'm not too worried about having to give them up. I'm still new at being a Christian and I'm definately making a million mistakes, but I'm positive that if I died right now, I'd go to Heaven. if you don't believe in the same things that I believe in, it's ok. I think you're wrong and that you need to change but I'm not going to force you. when you get the calling and that tugging at your heart, you'll know it's time. if you're forced, the feeling won't last. I know it sounds fake, but it really isn't. talk to me if you have any questions, I'm here to hear what you have to say. I won't turn anyone away.