domokun Okay why is it every time I get into a relationship that I actually like the person. Something from my past comes up to bite me on the a**? Corey came back to haunt me about Chris. Now I believe someone else is coming back. My teenage crush that I was so desperately in love with, Brandon. I would choose Chris in a heart beat. Still, Brandon was the one that had gotten away. dude it is like 6:42 am. I have to go too school today to get my schedule changed. I am not looking forward to it. I was trying to go to sleep, but Chris called. He had to confide something in me, and now I can not sleep. Not because of him, I just can't sleep. I have mild cases of Insomnia at some points. That is okay though. when i go back to school, although is when it gets bad and annoying.
So yeah Chris confided in me and I am proud that he trusts me that much. I am glad that he actually cares enough about me to put me on such a position as trust. It takes me forever to trust someone enough to tell deep dark feelings. I will tell people antying they ask usually because stuff like that i have nothing to hide. Although, true heart felt thoughts and feelings I usually do not share. I do not get close to people. I am surprised Chris has. The first time I asked him to confide secrets in me he basically said no...now he is.
I hate almost going back ot school. I mean the wait that is. We have so much damn work to just get into an honors level coarse. I just want this work off me. To get into a honors level coarse you must do work over the summer. It does not bother me usually, infact it give me something to do. Although, this summer the new teacher has given us enough work to kill someone. SHE IS ******** CRAZY...SHE HAS TO BE.
I hate having to go back and make friends and s**t. I do not believe I have any friends in any of my classes. I wonder how I will see Chris, also. God I hate going back to that damn place.
For some reason I feel as if I am achieving a new understanding of Martial Arts. My technique has improved dramatically over the coarse of a year. I am a little impressed with myself. martial Arts has never been my strong suit. My brother has kind of forced on me. Ever since he has kind of eased up, I have understood it a log better. I feel as if my grammar is getting bad. I used to have excellent grammar but for some reason it has gotten kind of bad.
It is too damn early in the morning to be going to school and being on the damn computer. I think I might write. I still have about an hour and a half before I must drive over to the school.
God I hate mornings.
 Orchids of Apocalypse · Thu Aug 09, 2007 @ 11:51am · 1 Comments |
