Recently, my brother pointed something out to me. He saw my writing diary, but I quickly closed it before he could read it. I had been typing it into my Gaia journal. He noted that it was strange that I'd hide my private thoughts from him but publish them into an online diary for everyone to see and read. Well, he was right. It is strange, but there is a reason. Most of the people I've seen on Gaia, I've never met in real life. I don't care what they think about me (no offense sweatdrop )! My family, friends, and acquaintences are a different story. I have to interact with them; I have to talk with them; I have to deal with their looks and sneers. They judge me enough as it is; I don't need them to hear my most inner voice...It's better this way...And if it isn't, I've lived with it this long, I can keep going. I feel as if the people on here need to hear these words more than those who I talk to everyday. They know me! I say these things all the time; they're probably tired of hearing it. Y'all (probably) don't hear it all the time, and I think you need to start to hear it now.
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