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Everyday i try to make it though without crying, or trying to commit suiside, i had hope, but now
its gone, i feel compleatly heartbroken, i wish i were dead, since everyone else wants me to die,
i am only a b***h because i stand for myself, since my whole life no one else has ever stood for me, not even my family ..or friends
im that rejected person who finds hope then gets it crushed
i still look for hope. all the time,
there is no love for me
i try to be happy and nice not for myself only for others, even when i seem happy i am sad, but at least i try...i really do ...but no one cares, they say they do , but they dont,
i am tired of dealing with others probloms i really am...i just think i will die now, i have no reason to be, my only hope of getting out of this is gone because they were selfish and got to greedy , when i am upsett i get either sad and angry and they got mad at me...even though its all their fault, then turn around and call me a pycho jelouse b***h
when they just couldnt get enough and just had to have more, it wasnt jelouse, my heart was broken and ripped apart in many pieces, even when that was happeingin i still tryed to be happy, but they couldnt stop they had to have more
this wasnt my fault and yet i am still a phycho b***h
and death sounds so good
plus my life is just s**t
now my aunt is in the hospital the only person who ever loved me...and now she might die
eventhough i still look for hope