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Heh, I never thought I would read you're journal, Shippo. Kind of depressing, though. I feel like I'm reading a really.. uh.. god I can't think of the word! >.< I feel like I'm looking into a once hidden hole. You look into it, and you think "Wow, I wonder where it ends?" then you realize "Hey, what if I'm the first to see this? What if I'm the first to take the plunge as I fall down into the dark abyss? Is there even a way out?" What I'm trying to say Shippo, as I am a rather sympathetic person at heart, is that I feel sorry for you. This isn't that "Because I have to" sympathy either. Believe it or not, everyone has something incredibly hard they have to go through that makes them sad. Also, I think you should cherish the fact you're not a perfect student. What I would kill to go back to elementary school where I was an A/B student. Being smart isn't all it's cracked up to be. I'm ripping my hair out at the moment because I'm trying not to fall apart from all the stress. Being perfect wears on you after a while, and if you don't do something right, if feels just as bad as feeling inferior, but maybe even worse. It feels like the world will end. (And in my case, it's a sequence. Take my clay pot in art. That thing is as ugly as the earth is round. Well, Ms. Null finally helped me with it, but the fact I couldn't do it myself since I"m such a perfectionist made me cry. Not being able to do something can get you a low grade, and my mom throws things at me if I even bring home a B+. You still think being dumb is so terrible? Try getting straight A's out of chance and having to work non-stop to keep it. It's like hell.) But putting my stories aside, what I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't feel sad if you feel different or inferior. We're all suffering from the same disease: life. If something doesn't work out, you have to try something else. Like I always say (Which Mr. Campbell really loves) is that when you're life is going down a hole, you have to build yourself a ladder. If you don't like something, do something to make it better or find a way to change it. It works most times. And btw, stop calling yourself weird. You'd be surprised how weird I am. :sweat: See you in school, Shippo. And don't take it personally if I seem anti-socal. I just really hate living at the moment. ^_^

Wow... that is depressing. Try lookimg up. On the bright side of things. And Vivi, LIFE IS NOT A DISEASE! It's a gift! It's just hard sometimes... There's always something good when everything seems just flat out terrible. You just have to search for it.

Shippo, you're not stupid, and it's not you're fault. Everyone has days where they think the world is gonna fall down. And I must tell you...moving doesn't help, because I'll be away from splendid people such as you guys. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was moving in the first place! I thought I had told you already, and it skipped my mind. Forgive me for that... sweatdrop
Besides, life is a gift from God. Cherish it. We wouldn't have good times without the bad.

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thanks everybody! im feeling better now, just when i wrote that, nobody would listen to me no matter what i said.