Yes, I've got nothing better to do today, since none of my friends feel the need to get online (or even think about me), and I can't seem to think of repsonses to RPs I'm currently supposed to be active in, I'm going to whiiiiiine. Not that anyone actually reads this thing anymore, anyway. Why not whine?
I'm bored... yup. No one's online, my sister's not around to bug, my mom doesn't want to do anything but read, my hands are hurting too much to play Soul Calibur at the moment, I want to draw but can't seem to motivate myself to do it or even think of something to draw, my inspiration for RP has pretty much died at the moment, I don't want to write but want to do something with my characters... I'm just overall screwed, huh? But there's NO ONE online to talk to... Rach is...somewhere... Neat hasn't been on for two weeks (which worries me). Shea hasn't been online all week except for yesterday, which was brief because she was 'busy'. So I'm stuck wallowing in boredom...
Boredom and that inkling feeling that I'm being ignored or avoided. Maybe it's paranoia, I don't know. But it bugs me, right at the back of my mind. And the fact that my sister went out with her friends yesterday and I was left here to realize that I don't have friends to go out with didn't exactly help me at all. I think I'm going through one of those depression phases again... Oh well.
Kinda wish I could have gone shopping, but today's Mother's day, so everything's closed, and we didn't go anywhere yesterday because mom's too engrossed in her book to get up from her desk or the couch for more than five minutes unless you turn on the television, in which she'll move to another room because it's 'bugging her'.
So yes... right now I'm just... I think I'm irritable or something. I don't know. I'm annoyed, bored, ignored, and just... nyeh... want to scream or something. >< I want attention, dammit! Is that so much to ask for when I'm inivisible the rest of the week? Weekends are supposed to be my time to get attention...
*sigh*
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Random randomness from the mind of a wierd little person.
That would be me.
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