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I hate you,
I want to cry.

I wish I knew if it'd make you happy,
at least I wouldn't have failed completely.

I'm so tired of struggling with thoughts of you,
where have the years gone? Where have the feelings gone?
Where are all the "I love you"s and the smiles we shared?
All these feelings feel so wasted on the floor,
like spilled milk I'm starting to spoil.

My heart weeps as I try to get over you.
If this is what love leaves you with, I'm finished.

I've heard my heart break before,
but there's always been someone new.
There was no one planned for after you,
because I believed you were forever.

Where did all these memories go?
These words are wasted as I cry "I love you!"
to the walls of my empty room. I'm so empty here.
Where has the time gone, where have you gone?

I cry "This isn't fair!" but love is never fair.
"I gave you my all! What more do you want?!"
I never got a straight answer from the beginning.
I've fallen so hard since you've been gone,
no one can replace the gape I have right now.

I can't believe I rested so much in you,
can't believe I thought maybe I had a chance.
Don't tell me you're sorry, because it's all my fault.
The tide's pulling out, and it's dragging me in.

Forget me forget me, I'm a useless thought,
but I'm sure, your heart forgot me before this all.
I'm crying out, I begged you to try for me!
I begged you! I begged you every time I cried!

Where have we gone, because I'm surely gone.
You may remain, but my heart is sinking away.

Heavy heart weighed with all this distress.
I beg you please- just leave me to rest,
at the bottom of my blacked sea of darkness.

I never thought things would get to this,
maybe I believed you were forever.

Forever- nothing to me lover, you were never mine.
I failed to gain your heart, I'm the only one crying.
I beg you to hate me, hate me so I can move on.

I hate you, I hate you I hate you, I love you.
I still love you while I fall apart inside.
You're never coming back, I refuse to let you.
But I still love you, I can't forget so easily.

You were the one thing holding me together,
at least I thought you were, you were to me.

I must be nothing to you, you cried for her,
you love her more than you could possibly love me.
She could survive without you, she proved she could.
But what about me baby, what about me?

Third thought, fourth feeling, second choice,
just forget me, you're better off that way.


Protect yourself darling..run away..
don't watch me, as I settle and decay.
Run away..don't watch me, cry.