So I've just had a nice time. Just talking is really relaxing, lets me unwind without trying to go out of my way to do anything. I could really go for a cup of hot tea right now, or some coffee. I'm working on my previous meltdown, I'm definitely in the afterstages of it. It's soothing to know I don't have to beat myself up too horribly bad.
Apparently she doesn't hate me. It's a start. Next is to plan out when to just buck up and tell her what I need to say and ask if she's willing to try again. Turns out this summer when I screwed up I realized I didn't know I was hurting anyone. The person who pushed me to agreeing was talking with her during the fact, somethign I wasn't aware of. Operating on this "She can't miss what she didn't have" mindset, I proceeded to make a monumental mistake. But now I'm recovering.
I might try spilling the beans next week if my cough clears up more. It's kind of exhilarating knowing I'm about to do something big. Yeah, maybe Thursday next week. Or Tuesday. Probably Tuesday. It's settled then...maybe. I don't know, I might just spit it out Monday, get it over with the first day face to face so I don't lose my nerve. Yes, I'll do that. Thanks for the advice. Bye!
~Snowflake
 Val Ritz · Sat Jan 30, 2010 @ 05:06am · 0 Comments |
