he talked, he came back, I was so happy to read it <3
I hope he'll pm again soon... for tomorrow is a very special day..
I lost weight, feel skinny and healthy! ^^
yet my happyness faints away easly...
for I can't talk to the guy I love...
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I'm stuck with feelings...
but I know for sure that I'm gonna forget about Thomas, he likes someone else...
though my friends tell me he keeps on staring at me..
I'm gonna tell the truth to the one that loves me..
it's for the best, my gaian brother told me so..
the one that pleased me...
I'm so jealous... I want him, no it feels like I need him..
but he has a gf.. I wished... no, I shouldn't be thinking about him.......
the one that stole my heart, the one I hurted to much, my javier....
there is no way I can forget him, there is no second I stop thinking about him..
javier still has my heart, I have his too... but I took a vow, I would never go back to him... I hurt him to much...
but..... I want to be with him.. I want children with him, a house, a family... happyness...
forsure, I will NEVER forget my javier, he will always be mine, always.
I'm so weak....
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