scream FTW?!?! scream
I suppose I shouldn't be so surprised and irate, I mean she has been hanging around for...two months now? It has tried to mother me. I don't need a goddamned mom. I'm doing fine with my aunts and grandma. It also tried to tell my dad how to raise me.
A few things I would like to make clear:
Her own children are screwed up, thanks to it's parenting. No thank you. I'm ******** up enough. Also, I'm very unwilling to give this 'mother/daughter' thing a shot. Because the first time worked out so well.
So far, I've been ignoring it, my mentality being: If I can't see it, it's not there. Yes, I close my eyes when it's near me. I've never tried this tactic before with my dad's other barflies, so I guess you could call it a test run. Results?
Shunning = E P I C F A I L
It's not getting the points of shunning someone are:
Don't talk to the shunned.
Look through the shunned, NEVER at the shunned.
If the shunned speak to you, look around as if the voice came from thin air.
The reason I'm ranting is because of last night:
It scolded me for coming home late. I was in the door by 4 pm, my little sister right behind me. It told my sister she looked rough and dirty. It then asked me why I had a pair of goggles on my head. I ignored it, and continued to help my little sister get her homework finished.
Then it tried to yell at me when it asked me the same question and I still hadn't answered. Getting annoyed with it, I replied without looking up: I don't know, why is your hair greasy? We just don't talk about it.
It let the room in a huff. To call my dad I was being unreasonable. First mistake. It handed me the phone all smug, and I told him it called Sony rough and dirty, and that I didn't appreciate that remark. My dad told me to work it out, then hung up. I shrugged, and Sony giggled at it's look on it's face that I squealed.
My sister finished her homework and I continued on my way to my bedroom. Still, not bothering to inform it I was late because my sister's Forensics meeting ran late, and then I took her for fast food since she hadn't ate. I decided I would tell my dad when he got home, in front of it. Just to be annoying. Second mistake: following me downstairs to my room, trying to get my attention.
Finally I had enough, turned around and said: Oh, I didn't notice you there. What are you still doing in my house?
Here I looked it up and down, like I hadn't seen it before...it looked unnerved I actually acknowledged it's being, then said: Huh, that's funny. Dad decided to mix it up this weekend?...Was he drunk?
Then closed my door to my room in it's face when it told me I was grounded. Yea okay new mommy. I suppose some of you are thinking 'Why get in the way of your dad's happiness?'
Simple: Self Preservation.
Old mommy was abusive and a drinker, now currently living in Nebraska. New mommy, I highly doubt you are reading this but if by some will of Fate...THIS IS WAR.
Don't tell me how to live my life. I don't give a flying ******** how perfect you think you are. YOU WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY DAD. I don't like you. You are horrible to my older brother and younger brother. All you know how to do is open a beer can. Natives like you are reasons why Natives like me and my siblings are being looked down upon. And dad has the nerve to ask me why...
Because its IMPOSSIBLE to like and loathe someone at the same time.
Coming Dawn. A new day. Forget yesterday. Life is simple, its just not easy to change.
What we see depends mainly on what we look for.
What we see depends mainly on what we look for.
