|Ok, I'm temporarily taking a break from my current story to post a continuation from a story that a friend of mind wrote about two of our RP characters << You can find the original story here, in case you haven't read it yet. Warnings include shounen-ai (of course), and angst... a lot of it. Enjoy!|
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Darkness. Silence. Those were the only things that seemed to register to Rai at that point. There was nothing else; not even the pain from the wounds he had recieved. It was as if he was floating, except he couldn't see or hear or even feel. He was just there, drifting through a sea of black.
Was that what it meant to be dead? He couldn't be dead, though; that was impossible! Maybe it was just a dream and he would wake in a few moments to find himself wrapped within the safety of Ren's embrace. All of it was just one big, horrible, twisted nightmare, and he wanted to wake up!
Strangely, Rai found he could open his eyes. He hadn't expected it, either. However, instead of lying in bed with Ren, he was standing near the window of the room they shared. It felt odd, though, especially when he looked to see Shizuka and Suzu huddled around the bed of the room.
"What are you two doing?" The blonde boy asked curiously as he approached . But there was no answer. "Hey - " He stopped at the sight he saw in the bed, his eyes widening.
There he was, his body, lying in the bed, a blanket draped up to his waist. His eyes were closed, as if he were merely asleep. Blonde strands of damn hair lay spread over the pillow and his face was pale and clammy. His hands lay at his sides, heavily bandaged and slightly bloody; probably from the daggers that had pinned him to the tree during that fateful hour.
However, the most disturbing sight was the large amount of bandaged that covered his chest. Somehow, blood was still seeping through. No doubt Shizu and Suzu were attemping to keep him alive, trying to stop the loss of the life-sustaining liquid, or at least slow it.
The thought hit Rai like a brick and his eyes widened even more, not only from shock, but from fear. He couldn't possibly be dead, could he? No, this was definitely just a dream. No, a nightmare. It was a figment of his imagination and at any moment he could awake from it. But that hadn't worked the last time, either...
Unable to bear the sight of his broken and fading body, Rai left the room. Izumi, Hunter, and Alice were standing just outside the door, obviously worried. It was easy to tell that they were all close to tears, but all of them were fighting those emotions back, hoping for the best. It wasn't long, however, before Alice broke, soft sobs coming from her as she covered her face. Izumi soon followed and it was left to Hunter to attempt to calm them and reassure them that all would be well. He could be such a sweet guy...
But Rai continued down the hallway. He couldn't bare to see his friends in such a state because he had been dumb enough to allow himself to be kidnapped by a filthy demon. Those thoughts were pushed from his mind, however, as he went in search of the one person he had yet to see. The one person he wanted to see more than anything.
Ren was probably blaming himself for what had happened. Rai didn't want that, though; not if it was going to drive the green-haired male away6. Live or die, he didn't want to be alone. He wanted Ren there with him, even in his last moments. The thing that had always scared him was dying; especially dying alone.
"Ren?!" He called out, almost as if it would help him find his lost lover. But he knew Ren couldn't hear him. A feeling like panic was starting to take over, which was suprising, considering his situation. It was hard to believe he could feel anything at all.
However, his panic soon settled as he saw the brooding male near the window, his thoughts obviously elsewhere. "Ren?" The look of pure pain on the other male's face tugged at Rai's heart and he just wanted to cry. He wanted to tell Ren that everything would be ok and that it wasn't his fault, but he knew that was impossible. It was useless to try.
The green-ahired male glanced around as if he had heard something. But, with a sigh and a shake of his head, he seemed to disregard it, turning his attention back to the window and his thoughts. Rai carefully edged a little closer, watching the other male.
"Ren? Th...this is all a joke, right? F...for all the pranks and stuff?" His voice was hopeful, but wavered, as he stood before his lover. "It's not really funny, so can you guys just...stop now? Please?" He felt something akin to panic set in once more as he thought about it. If this wasn't a dream, then it had to be a prank of some sort. There was no way that he was dead, or even dying. That wasn't his body in that bed, slowly slipping from existance. "This joke isn't funny anymore..."
The usually perky blonde was anything but at that point. This couldn't possibly be happening. Ren didn't joke, and he didn't seem to notice him. Surely he wasn't...he couldn't...
"Oh god..." Rai felt as though he would break down at any moment, a lump lodging itself in his throat. He didn't want to die. But it wasn't because he was sitll young or anyting. No. He didn't want to be alone. And he didn't want Ren to be alone, either.
"Ren...please...tell me this isn't happening." Rai whispered as he looked back to his lover. Slowly, he stepped closer until he was able to touch the other male. There was nothing; he felt nothing beneath his fingers. All feeling had left him. Something short of a sob caught in his throat and he pulled closer, pressing himself against Ren, hoping to feel something. Anything. He wanted to feel the fabric or the beat of Ren's heart. But there was nothing...
"I don't... I don't want to die..." He whispered, taking a deep breath. He wanted to cry and felt as if he would, but he was kept from it. Slowly, he looked up to Ren, watching his face. It was obvious that the other male couldn't see him, which only hurt more. However, he saw the pain in Ren's lavender eyes, even through the glasses; that look of loss and self-blame. Rai knew it was not the time for self-pity; Ren needed him as much as he needed Ren.
Taking a deep breath, Rai rested his forehead against the other's chest. "I... don't know if you can hear me or not," he started softly, "but I don't want you to blame yourself for this. It... it'sn ot your fault. If I hadn't let myself get caught like that... but it was the demon's fault. Not yours..."
Another shakey breath passed Rai's lips as he suddenly felt his chest tighten, but he pushed his pain aside. "No matter what, you have to get through this, Ren. The other's need you. I don't... I don't want to die, but... but know that I'll always be with you, no matter what.
"Don't leave me, Ren. Please... my worst fear has been to die alone. If... if I can't pull through this, I... I need you to be there." He closed his eyes tightly, the pain now almost unbarable, as if someone was ripping his head from his body. He wasn't sure if it was from the wound or because of Ren.
"Please... live or die, don't leave me alone..." For some reason, Rai couldn't get his eyes to open any longer. His body suddenly felt numb and once again, the pain fadded slowly. "Don't... let me die..."
That feeling of floating returned as he fell away from Ren. Was this it? Was he finally dying? It couldn't be... this couldn't happen. It wasn't supposed to end like this. Everything faded once more to darkened silence. What would happen now? Would he ever wake up, or would he be swallowed by the bittersweet emptiness of death?
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