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Damnation. How much I hate those people staying in my house. I'll have to stand them for a ******** week! That sick fd of mine just sits there staring her plate as we are eating. She doesn't smile, she doesn't even say anything ever. Then people complain I am being rude as I don't talk to her either and I'm not like all happy hyper friendly to her. I can't just help the fact that she's really really annoying! I don't know her. I have no idea what to talk about with her, and our lives are so different, that we don't even understand each other a single bit. I hate this. I just want her to go back to the shitty Finland.
Her mother, omg. She's so ******** annoying. She talks and talks and talks and wonders everything around her and she's scared of everything. She thought this place would be all protected with thousands of locks and heavy doors, because there were stoners and gangsters outside. She thinks this is the same as some worst parts of New York or Warshaw (spelling?)... Then besides that the only thing she talks about is herself and her own life. Today they complained that there was no milk left, and I told them they should have asked me to bring some as I went over to Bas. They said they'd have phoned me later, but I told them that I didn't even have a mobile. Not ******** everybody needs a mobile! I just really hate those. Then she asked me why am I so rude, and that mother of hers said it's my age. ******** her! Just ******** off! If you cannot stand young people because you've got some strange stereotypes in your head of how they act when they are trying to look like adults(I wasn't angry because it's supposed to be some sort of kewl. I wouldn't say I was even angry. I only said I did not have a mobile, which is just a raw fact. I could say, however, that I was pretty pissed already at that point, as they say stuff like that), she should go wipe her fifties a** to sombody else's home. At that point I was about to throw something at her, but I just told them good night and left them there. Whatever.
I don't want to go back to Finland. It's full of idiots. They all only want me to go back so that they can tell everybody around them they know me and I am their friend, because I lived here. It's supposed to be some kind of speacial to have lived somewhere away from the Northern piece of s**t. I love my country, but I hate most of its people. Sorry. I thought I would like people, but I have found out things that I before found discusting have started to seem fascinating now. I don't know what I am. I'm trying to get to know. Now I just know that I don't like people very much in general, though I always wanted to say I did. Or let's put it this way: In general I love everybody, but most of the ones I have met have proved they aren't worthy loving, and so I just turned out not liking most people. I should not be so discriminal, black and white, but I always either love a person, or then I hate them. No one's just "alright" to me.
I hope this evil world will end soon, and we'll all get to go to heaven and live as we like, without having to deal with other people. With setting your own rules, without having anyone judge your doings. Gays, gipsies, jews, paraphiliac people, psychotic people, black people, christians, straight people, moslems, hindoes, musicians, painters, engineers, teachers, bums, lol... everybody will go to heaven, and everybody will be happy then. At last. I hate this world. We should all maybe help to destroy it...