a couple days ago my little brother started to play my new Marimba without asking me! he was banging on them so hard that i heard a small crack, that pissed me off soooo much....then out of nowhere he begins to control my life!!!! he disconnects my internet and tell me i have to go to bed before he does.... i am about ready to kill him!!!! and he is the reason i am getting the smaller room in the house!!!! oh ya and the entire movingness..... I HATE IT!!!!!!!!! the house looks like a skeleton and everything!!!!! there are boxes everywhere and i am the last to start packing up (no duh i dont wanna move!!!!) i will be staying with my uncle till the end of the school year..... and the reason for moving is because my step dad has cancer and he is the dad i live with.... he is always depressed and hates where we are living now... so now that we are moving he is soooo happy.... he has packed up half the house already by himself.... and he choose the house and our bedrooms (while being influenced by my little brother) i get no say in anything at all!!!! oh and my mom screwed up her knees last winter and can walk very well, and my dad cant lift anything heavy because he had surgery so they asked me to ask three of my friends to help, preferably guys because the are "better at lifting heavy objects" so its gonna be me and three of my guy friends packing out the house.... i have to change my name before we move so that if my mom, god forbid, die i dont have to go live with my birth dad who threatened to kill my mom if she changed my name but here i change on my own without permission.... so it makes me worried because he has anger problems and is unpredictable!!! he almost came to visit us without telling us first then said that my step dads mom was sick... SHE WAS IN PERFECT HEALTH!!!!! he has not talked to me since he told me i was unloved and worth nothing when i was Five years old!!! i had to go to therapy for weeks!!!!!
the other day i started to cry and i was all depressed... i am still depressed... and this is just the start of my rant.... life is sooo bad right now for me... *sighs*
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