YES YES it would seem i am expected to Hoist the world and all its tears on my awaiting shoulders. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO! i would do away with every last one of them at times. Keeping control is harder than it seems but i know this i pull it off well enough. I turn and sometimes am so close to breaking but there is no shoulder for me. NOT A SINGLE SET OF ARMS THAT ACCEPT ME AND MY PROBLEMS! what am i saying LOCK IT ALL AWAY that is what ive learned. And should it destroy me so be it. ******** THIS WORLD!! yeah i lock away my problems but that dosent mean that i will hold up this nation with what strength ive been able to cultivate. DO YOU BEINGS KNOW HOW CLOSE THE BLADE HAS COME TO MY WRIST TO MY THROAT! do you know how many times ive wished the sharp tounge to move a little deeper into my flesh.
But enough of such talk, even those who claim or say love tend to do this to me trial me and leave me alone exhausted and bleeding on the stones dejectedly crying a name unanswared until i realized ive been abandoned. and then they retrun with anouther task on their heals. * mad laughter* YES! YES! IM THE PERFECT WHIPPING GIRL AM I NOT! WHY OF COARSE I AM! I MUST SEEM TO CRAVE IT! A MAD HALF BLIND IMMORTAL TRAPT IN FLESHY CHAINS OH GODS YES!
but that i am afraid is a not a story for the eyes of roving public. Not a tale for weak and bruising hearts ... ill set back now quietly and whistfully awaiting the next one.
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