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I want a guy who will love me above all else, but will not try too hard to make me happy, to the point of becoming unhappy himself. I want a guy that will understand some times I just can't be very happy, but it doesn't mean I don't love him. I want to be held in higher esteem than sex or money. I want to be beautiful to my man in my pajamas, and that he'll think I'm beautiful even if I'm not skinny. I want to be cuddled, and have it be just than, no alterior motive intended. I want the promise that before I'm thirty, I'll have a family and a nice (this does not mean big) house. I want a cat and two children. When I'm in pain or feel sick, I want to be babied. When he's in pain or feels sick, I want to take care of him. I want our anniversaries, no matter the month or year, to mean something. I don't want someone to smoke in front of me, or smell like it, and if they do I want them to try and stop and understand my reasons why I want them to stop. I want to watch operas and musicals and corny girl movies so I can cuddle on my man. I want to watch scary movies for the same reason. Iwant to watch action movies so him and I can both be excited, or comedies so we can laugh together. I want to be held, and if I don't make the first move I want him to make it. I love when guys I like make the first move, and I want him to know that too.
When we kiss I don't want to end up with a wet face, I also don't want to be kissing someone who hasn't brushed their teeth for two days. I also don't want to cuddle with someone that smells like sweat (after we make love it's understandable, and loved as well, I know people smell odd after it.<3) If I say "no", that means "no". There will be no "if"s, "and"s, or "but"s. If I am ever hit or called a name, I will not stand for it. My man has to understand I have strong morals (that doesn't mean I'm prude) and I will not break them. I want to feel comfortable in silence, and I want him to feel comfortable when I get nervous and chatter too much. I want to go out sometimes, to the park or the waterfront or the mall to window shop. I want to cook and chare the responsibility of cleaning up, likewise when he cooks. I want to be able to take my anger out on someone and have him just smile and hug me, because he knows I love him, that I'm just stressed and don't have anyone else to talk to. I want to talk. I want to know what's on his mind, and tell him what's on mine. I want to be more important than a hobby. If he proposes, I want to be in public, and I want the ring on sight because the ring is the symbol. I never want to leave angry, and if I try to walk out the door he'd better follow me and grab me and hold me. I want to be treated like I matter, that I'm intelligent because I know I am. I want to be given the best attention in the world, and try to give it in return, because I know that's what I deserve.