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September 17 2006
Well this was an uneventful weekend. On Friday I was mad because I didn’t have anything to do and no were to go. So I went on the laptop, surfing the net, talking to my short haired girl friend, and on gaia. It was about 12am when the guy I like came on MSN. I got up the nerve to tell him that I wasn’t ok with the whole us not happening thing. He told me that he didn’t have time for a girlfriend right now, and I understood that. But then he said something that really hurt my feelings. He said that “if” he was going to make an exception it would be for my best friend. (Short red hair and blue eyed friend) I was quiet shocked at first but then not so much. After all everyone likes her and I love her to pieces. This is the second time that something like this has happened to me and I’m all broken up about it. Even now I’m crying. Its not her fault. What is it about me that’s so bad. Am I fat or am I not enthusiastic enough??? In my 18 years I have only had one b/f and he doesn’t really even count. I like this guy so much but he hurt me. My family is telling me to forget about him, because he’s not worth it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, my appetite has flown the coop and I don’t enjoy things anymore.
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