Im falling into depression, again and this time i think i wont be able to save my self from drowning.
there are 3 people I love, and yet... somthing is happening. I feel like something is going on, like im being avoided. Every time one stops by they leave without saying goodbye... I cant go over and anger is stirring deep in me. A place that sometimes i fear to look the words i try to ignore but have finally built up to the point I can't. Its gotten to the point that people that love me and like them are saying " mabey you need to get out of this, its taking away what little of yourself you have left." and when i shrug saying i dont know they nearly scream " GOD DAMN IT your worth more than this. Its not like you to lay down and be a doormat, Our priority is to protect YOU and how do we do that when you just lay down and take it."
I dont think i can stand it much longer, i dont think i have it in me. Mabey ill drown soon and this all will be over, mabey theyll take me. I wont apologize to for this, ive been apologizing for far to long and i realize that now, i shouldnt have to.
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