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Here's the thing with my dad: He's a ******** a*****e. He shunned and abandoned his two daughters without a care in the world. He tore my heart out and ripped it to ******** shreds. I was a daddy's girl to the max and to have him literally say to me that he would choose his new girlfriend over us in a second, I was crushed. I cried and cried days on end and I'm still not over the pain. (I'm sorry if I type weird, I'm upset, mad, and crying so my vision is blurred) Well anyway, so he ditched me and my sister, but after that, he took part custody of my brother. Part custody meaning two days a week every two weeks.
My brother: he's been smoking pot, getting in trouble with cops, stealing things, breaking things, hanging out with two little ******** brats and we still have not told our dad. Until tonight in fact. My brother knows that my mom and dad hate hate hate eachother and he knows my mom won't call my dad. He also knows that my mom is not as strong as he is and she can't do anything.
Tonight my brother harrassed a girl. Got caught with his friends that he's not supposed to hang out with and got ratted out by this security guard to my mom. So after a bit of convincing me and my sister convinced my mom to call our dad. It has been about a year and a half since she last called him and they fought like rats, they yelled they screamed and it was all over me and how my dad doesn't love me and I was a bit nervous about them talking again.
So they talked like civilized people and I was pretty happy and my dad was like "LET ME TALK TO HIM WHEN HE GETS HOME! HE'S NOT ALLOWED TO HANG OUT WITH THAT KID" and blah blah blah, like a concerned parent. Well my brother came home and my mom told him that she told my dad. My brother is upstairs now crying his eyes out. He's ******** devastated that my dad found out about his little escapades and I'm not sad about that because that little brat needs a ******** wake-up call. So my mom called my dad back after my dad had time to talk to his b***h girlfriend Donna (who makes him do all these things like abandon his children) and he was like "oh well I'm not doing anything until the girl's apologize to me".
WHAT THE ********! I was so pissed off. Firstly this has nothing to do with me and my sister. It has to do with my brother, my mom and my dad. Secondly, me and my sister have no need to apologize. How about my dad who watched me cry my eyes out when his girlfriend called me all these names, abused my trust and tore my heart out so that I can't trust anyone now? He's the one that needs to apologize and god damnit I am so mad I don't know why I'm typing this but I need to vent and I know my friends will check this diary and since it's Christmas Break I can't half talk to any of you.
Anyway so he brings that up and my mom is like "the girl's have nothing to do with this and they won't ever talk to you" because of course we won't. And he hangs up on her. So I'm crying so ******** hard now and I've begun to hyperventilate, which I do when I cry too hard, and I'm in a mad fit of rage and I want to call him. I don't want to believe that he's not talking to his own son who needs him right now. I don't want my brother to go through the same pain I'm in and I still can't believe that my dad would abandon his LAST child because me and my sister won't apologize for something we didn't do. My brother needs him, not only needs him as a loving concerning parent, but someone who will kick his a** and tell him to stop with the dope and getting his life ******** up.
Me and my sister get on the phone with my dad and my sister does all the talking and this is how the conversation went, knowing that I'm on the other line still trying to not cry loudly.
Jessica: This has nothing to do with me and Katie
Dad: Well you know what, it kinda does.
Jessica: No dad, you don't understand, this has to do with you and Austin
Dad: I only want to talk to him, drag him out of there if you have to! Put the phone to his ear
Jessica: We can't! He's locked in his room till the end of time, okay we can't
Dad: Put him on the phone!
Me: WE CAN'T DAD! WE JUST CAN'T!
Dad: I only need to talk to him, I won't beat him up or anything
Jessica: Well you know what, you'll have to come here and get him
And it goes on until he hangs up on us. It's the first time since I've talked to him for awhile so I'm still pretty mad. I can't believe any of this. I can't believe what a total b*****d he is, I can't believe he would put any of us through this pain, I can't believe that 45 minutes alone with Donna and he switched his "angry concerned parental view" to "it's all our daughter's fault and I won't do anything until they apologize"
******** this... I've cried to much tonight, I'm going to bed.
 Bella Amica · Sun Dec 19, 2004 @ 05:08am · 3 Comments |
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