Why must people annoy me so? How can some people call themselves friends and push you down all the time? That's what I would say two years ago. I love my life now. I have great friends, my mom and I haven't gotten into a fight for about two weeks, yet I have this sense of hopelessness, depression. So much so that I don't want to get out of bed in the morning, and sometimes sleep in about a half hour, just sitting there thinking. Why must I feel this way? And to top it all off, the online radio station I'm listening too keeps playing shitty music and I've used half of my skips for this hour... stare
I need a boyfriend. mad
I need a job. mad
I need money. mad
I need my freakin solitude! mad
Hmmm, maybe I could get a job, meet a perfect guy there, earn money while falling in love with him, and BUY my way to solitude! That would be perfect, and yet I know it won't happen.
It is Dayna's birthday tomorrow. She is so great. I love her. heart I bought her some things on Gaia just now. I equipped it to her without telling her! *knows all the passwords for her friends accounts* They know mine too... so it evens things out. I hope she likes them. For her Real Life present I'm thinking on Friday taking her to Wizards (this comic book shop that sells comics and most importantly, manga/anime!) and telling her to pick out a manga that she wants. Hopefully her brother will be there so that he can buy this Battle Royale manga for me because it's "adult". It's just got extreme gore people! domokun heart
Anyway, good times hopefully lie ahead, and maybe I can forget about the past, because that is the only thing keeping me back. sad
 Bella Amica · Thu Dec 02, 2004 @ 02:15am · 1 Comments |
