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I've been on this medication for a while..I"m not nearly as random and fun as I used to be, I've changed a lot. I"m not nearly as fun or excited about people, I"ve been shutting them out. I've been dreading waking up and dealing with my laptop but i'm so used to getting online and talking to people that I miss it. I guess I should get off these meds. Just get off them. Run away from them and be myself.

I feel as though my life has been changing since I started going to the hospital more recent. First year not going and new meds and I've been mentally stable. I have new friends, all my old friends I used to have quit being my friend. Moved on. I was boring to some cuz they stated " you changed " and quit talking to me. I hate it.I want my life back. My insanity is what made me sane. IF that make sense to anyone. I"m too with it. I want to be out of it. I want my happiness back.

I have proof that i'm a b***h, unfortunately one of my friends said they Hate me. and for some reason back then when i was with maci, she would cry and everything and i caught myself smiling. laughing. WHY

what the ******** is wrong with me. have i grown so heartless that i dont care about others feelings?

Someone help...what do I do...