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Um...
My Story
So...I'm in a mood. I'm depressed and feeling very down. It's one of those nights where I feel like there is no light around me, but a big angry cloud of shadow. I'm not looking for pity of for anyone to make me feel better. Everyone has these nights and I will surely be more than fine in the morning. For the moment, however, my dismal mood has put me in a very creative mood. It's a little ironic. I'm feeling depressed and tragic, and somehow, that brought about my writing a very, at least to me, inspirational snippet. I don't know if you'd call it an essay or a poem or a song. Whatever you want to call it, here you go. Just writing it out has made me feel the smallest inkling better, so it must be good for something.

Please excuse any gramatical mistakes. I'm quite sure this could be improved on if I decided to reread through it and fix things, but I don't much feel like it right now. Maybe someday, but now isn't right for that.

------ My Story -------

I often see on television the question “If someone wrote a book about you, what would it be about?” I don’t know that it’s a question that too many people spend too much thought about on a daily basis. Perhaps they don’t believe they’ll ever make history, or maybe they feel that their life is so exciting it would make a fantastic story. Whether or not my story would be a historical one, or even an interesting one for that matter, remains unknown to me. When I was young, as many could assume, I did not know what my story would be about. I grew up many dreams and goals in my life, all of them fantastic and beautiful, but I also grew up without much direction. I had my dreams, but was never really taught how to achieve them. All my life, my loved ones would say “You can do whatever you want!”, but when it came down to it, I was never pushed to find my niche.

Now, at the still very young age of twenty-one years old, I know what my story would be. My dreams are still fantastic and beautiful to me, but they may be much smaller compared to those of old. When I was young, I wanted to be an actress and a singer. It’s a common dream but I wanted it with all my heart. Now, I want a home of my own and a stable life. I still dream of making movies, but would much rather stand behind the camera than in front of it. I am a creative and strong woman.

But my journey, I feel, would not be about what has come to be. My future will be wonderful, but it is my past that has made me who I am today. My story would be about imagination and the will to fulfill my wildest dreams. It would be about color and those that have put them into my life. My story would be about love and learning what it really is, and the disappointment and heartbreak I have found through the years while I learned what those things really mean.

A word that comes to mind when I think about any future books that would be written about me is “creation”. I want to create and make beautiful stories and scenes in which people would never forget. Someday, I will take all who have their eyes on me to beautiful worlds in which they have never seen. They will follow my characters and their hearts will break for the tragedies and their hearts will swell with love when the princess finally marries her prince. I want to bring adventure to the lives of those who have no direction of their own. I want to inspire those who are lost, just as the beautiful and magnificent world of film has done for me.

When I feel most lost and depressed, I go to the movies. In doing so, I grow, I mend, and I create.





 
 
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