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[[ Note: This IS about a real person..About an ex boyfriend. ]]


Walk away from me, see if I care.
Walk away and see if I notice you aren’t there.
I will no longer cry,
I will break through every lie.
You think that I can not handle this,
Really, hon, it wasn’t that great of a kiss.
I’ve been through so much that I could not say,
There are so many that should really pay.
I’ve seen life drain from a person’s eyes,
Watched the color fade from blue skies.
I see you’re turning back to wonder if I have yet to drown in sorrow,
But I keep myself turned away; don’t even bother coming back tomorrow.
This is my sanctuary and mine alone,
I promise you, I won’t pick up the phone.
Fantasy takes over as reality spirals away,
I promise in pieces I will make your heart lay.
Stop looking back now because I will never turn around,
To you and your pain I am no longer bound.
All the times you have hurt me in plain sight,
I would never put up a fight.
Things have changed,
My new life I have already arranged.
The plans are set,
And there is someone new who has my standards met.
You are old news; history in my life,
I put up with it all until you grabbed the knife.
I stopped then and realized who I became,
I could no longer hide all my shame.
I broke down and made a mistake,
I tried to believe that I wasn’t awake.
I screamed at you and made you upset,
I then, like before, became trapped in my invisible net.
I couldn’t move and I couldn’t breathe,
Now I feel so much relieve.
The pain has gone along with the scars,
I sit in my room and peacefully out the window stare at the cars.
They pass by so fast and graceful,
The freedom of movement makes me so grateful.
I know now that I, too, can go wherever I wish,
Your behavior I no longer miss.
You don’t control me and it makes me feel good,
As well as a free girl could.
The pieces still lie in dust on your floor,
Just to let you know how I no longer have a core.
You ripped it out and tore it apart,
Showed me how you didn’t have a heart.
You didn’t care if I was hurt,
It didn’t send much of an alert.
Now that people care though, it bothers you so,
You are the one who can now not let go.
You blamed me all these years,
You hit me every time I cried those tears.
Now who’s crying in the end?
Please, the emails and letters no longer send.
I will not reply,
I would sooner rather die.
I almost did thanks to you,
But now that you are gone, my skies yet again are blue.
I can dance in the rain without having to cry first,
For happiness I can quench my thirst.
You turn around and open your mouth to speak your mind,
But no longer do I listen, you will find.
I do not turn around as you speak,
This makes you rather weak.
You try to regain control and it fades gently away,
But nothing changes my mind; nothing you say.
I stand there in a trance it seems,
My new self lit up by the sunlight beams
You anger yourself yet again and try to get my attention,
But your name I will no longer mention.
I will not speak to you nor your controlling ways,
I was done after all those days.
Finally you have had enough, run up and grab me tight,
But you realize, the old me disappears out of sight.
I am new and I am strong,
But still you stand there holding me; long.
I glance back and show you what you no longer own,
In my eyes you see I am no longer alone.
I was frightened and scared,
But now my feelings I have shared;
With others who care and others who see,
See how you do not even deserve to look at me.
“So let go now”, I whisper gently as you fall into shock,
Now you are the one who bares the lock;
As I hold the key,
Deciding if you will be free.
I smile as you fall,
Knowing you are now trapped behind the same walls.
I want you to see what I felt day after day,
As every one of your sins pay.
I the game of life I am the judge now,
And your life, I decide to no longer allow…


- May