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I don’t know what the truth is anymore.
It all just seemed so much easier before.
Back when we were innocent,
Before reality became so bent.
We are teetering on the edge,
Standing on the last few rocks of this steep ledge.
I cling to whatever is left behind,
Whatever sanity remains in my mind.
I reach for you but you let go,
Plunging me deep down below.
I scream for you;
As black encases the blue.
A single tear falls onto my face,
But it isn’t mine; there is no trace.
I still reach out,
Though I no longer deny my doubts.
I wasn’t betrayed, I was thrown away,
Now at the bottom my dead body lay.
These are now my tears,
Each drop shows another of my fears.
You left me lying there,
With such an empty stare.
I’m frozen now from the inside out,
Can’t even get up the energy to barely shout.
Even though I can no longer move I feel as though there is a fire inside me that is still burning,
Maybe it’s just my lust for you; yearning.
I can’t tell if these chills are from the day or the night,
Even if I could tell, neither would fill me with delight.
I still pray that you will come back,
But the faith I am starting to lack.
The days are turning into months and the months seem like years,
I watch the disinigrating tears.
I wonder now why you left me here to die,
Covering up even the above blue sky.
You made my heart fill with sadness and joy,
Using it like a child’s toy.
But you’ve broken it now but you are too blind to see,
There is nothing left of me…