Influential
Influential. Dictionary definition: having or exerting influence. My definition(s), Arie, Zandrea, Dawn, and Laura. Four very different girls, all of different backgrounds and ethnicities, with two things in common, being strangely random, and making a huge impact on my life, all of which being for the better.
Arie, Zandrea, and Laura, my quote unquote “sisters by soul not of blood”, have made the largest impacts on my life by far, the three of us going back three years. Zandrea is the oldest out of me and my ‘sisters’, and by far the strangest. One of the first things she told me about herself was how she wanted to be a stripper when she got older. Now however, things have changed, Zandrea is going to college next fall and is thinking about joining the military afterwards, but old habits die hard and she’s still random, having fits over how the Trix rabbit only wants his Trix and how the little kids won’t share. Zandrea and I can talk to each other for hours on end, our record being five hours on a school night, talking about everything and anything from our dreams, to our past, to school, and crushes, literally everything. The thing I love most about Zandrea is something I have a difficult time doing myself, Zandrea, no matter what, always manages to find the silver lining on a dark cloud. I think that with as much as I talk to Zandrea, that her optimism is rubbing off on me slightly, allowing me to make the best of things when everything is going wrong, something I had been unable to do before meeting her.
Laura, another of my ‘sisters’, is just as odd as the first, but a lot harder to read. When I first met Laura through Zandrea, she could hardly stand me it seemed, always glaring at me, calling me stupid, and saying harsh things. After some time, maybe a few months, Laura opened up to me, telling me horrible things about her past that no one but Zandrea and I knew. Laura had been molested when she was younger by her older brother, and her partying ways now that she was older didn’t do much to help the situation.. Around Christmas of last year, Laura tried to kill herself by overdosing on pills. At the time I was the only person she knew she could get a hold of at one o’ clock in the morning and so I stayed up with her, texting her back and forth, trying to keep her awake and talk her out of it. The next day I got a text from her saying she had been rushed to the hospital to have her stomach pumped. Despite the rough patch, Laura is strong despite everything that’s happened to her, something which I admire her for whether she knows it or not, because I wish I could be as strong as she is, and I strive to be that way all the time now.
The third girl on my list of sisters is Arie, the only one out of all my friends I get to see. Arie is a sort of lifeline to me, keeping me calm when I would otherwise be going mad ages ago. Arie is the only one of my best friends that lives in Texas that I can actually go out with. Arie and I have a inside joke, calling each other our “secret lover”, because she had a lesbian at her school all over her who refused to take no for an answer. So to get rid of her, Arie concocted a scheme in which I had to pretend to be her girlfriend. I look up to Arie because of how she always has such patience with me and my mood swings, and all the drama that I seem to attract. Arie is one of the few people other than Zandrea, Dawn, And Laura, that I know I can rely on no matter what happens.
Last but not least of my influential friends is a girl who I’ve known only for a year and a half or so, half of which she vanished for. Dawn, like Arie, is a lifeline of sorts to me, but not only to keep me calm, but on my sanity as well, something which to me is easily lost. Dawn has been there for me through so much, even more than Arie, Laura, and Zandrea in such a short time. Unlike me and my ‘sisters’, Dawn and I hit it off when we first met. I call her “My Hime’” which in Japanese means “my princess” because of how sweet she is to me. Dawn, like my ‘sisters’ has been through so much in her life and still manages to stand tall at the end of the day and be strong for those around her. She simply inspires me to be something better than me Dawn and I have a tendency to speak to each other in song lyrics, her main song to me, bringing tears to my eyes all the time.
One final thing that these four very loving, and unique girls is how they all, in their own little way, got me to stop cutting myself, and just stop to take a breather instead of working myself up. These four girl’s mean the world to me, and for them I would do absolutely anything.
“If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by”
Boats and Birds by Gregory and The Hawks.
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