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I Sat upon my bed, alone in my chambers. I had pondered the hole night trying despret for the solution to my problem, but to no avail. The mornings rays usually bring me hope but as the sun rose over the mountains my heart was heavy with fear and desires I knew would never be realized. sad Not as long as I remain here, at that moment all those familar thoughts once again rouse within my mind. Thoughts I had all but banished from my mind had come forward from thier dark depths to taunt me.
(leave this place, how can a princess explore, or be who or what she wants? you will always make choices for the good of the kingdom but never what your heart desires. Your father is already tring to find you a suiter to marry. You know you have no intention of marring anyone let alone settling down)
I hated how I know my mind was right. I wanted to explore and have freedom. I would never marry a stranger or someone I would never love. I have tried over and over to tell father but he never listens to me.
Finally after mush debate with myself I found myself with a my sattlebags packed with my gear and heading to my friend, Stars courters, to say goodbye. I managed to walk even though my legs were wanting to run. when I arrived i heard Star already attending to someone, so I hid in the shadows waiting for my moment to talk to her alone.
I didn't wait long for Star was an ackoplished healer and light mage for my father's kingdom. As she finished healing the lads leg for him I sat in amazement that Star was so lucky to have the gift of healing. I never really had the nack for it, unfortantly. when she sent him away with orders to take it easy for the next 2 days and the young boy scampered out the door, I entered threw the back door.

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Turning back to enter the main room of the small home Star noted that she was not alone. "Who would enter my home from the back instead of the front enterence? Would it be Kat that has buieness with me?"
"how did you know it was me Star?"
"only you have the adasitiy to not us the front unless you do not wish to be seen though, I can't image what a princess would have to hide from", she said giving me a once over with all to knowing eyes.
"You know me too well, old friend, yes you would be correct."
"So, Katheren what is it you wish my services this time? I will not help you run away if that is what you want," she declaired before we started.
"No that is not it , though not to far off either. I wish to stay here no longer, I will not marry, or rule for I have not the nack for the crown and all its responsablities. It will be a burden I wish not to bear."
Star looked at me for a long moment "Kat, you are truly serious this time and not just speaking the wind."
"I'm afraid so Star I just can't stay here anymore, I can be more of a help to my people out there," I said while pointing toward the gate. "please I just need supplies and some food help me"
"I love you like a sister but I can only do so much, if I can manage to provide you with what you need, you have to tell you father the truth first then, if he will not listen I will help you. Agreed?"
I so hate it when she doses this, "fine will you come with me and speak on my behalf?"
"What do you thinik? of corse."
And with that I headed for my fathers chambers with my only friend hopeing my father would understand.

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We made haste to my father's chamber to get this over with, how I hated that feeling of dread every time I try talking to father. I knew it has been avoided for too long, I mean he practically keeps me locked up and I can bearly move about the keep freely, it was time I left the place was. I walked in head of star and had her wait till I needed her as I proceeded to my father's thrown.
"Katheren so good to see you this morning, I have great news the Prince of Trolingwood has agreed to visit and possibly except you hand in marriage. However he wishes to meet you first he should be here tonight." He said with a gleam in his eyes, as usual, he expected me just to go alone like some programed princess.
"Father I will not concent to this marrage or do I wish to stay behind these walls anylonger. I am werry of this, I have heard the winds and moons call. It is time I make my own desitions and follow my desires. It would appear that my destiny is to travel and explor like mother."
"You over zelious daughter will do your duty, and marry. I will not allow such stupidity. I grow tired and annoyed with these jests you keep making. Your mother died from such wonderings and you will not follow her if I can help it. No your place is here, You will stay and marry this prince."
"Father, I..."
"Not another word, Katheren. You will do what I command"
Thank God of our people for Star
"Sire, if I may, Kat is just being young, and I will not lie that I have seen here future is hard to read. Perhaps she could have more reponsabilities outside of the castle such as attending maters of state, or of the people."
"Starrena ! you too are against me in my Daughter's definence", her gaze never moving. if looks could kill someone fathers would have inialated Star but she never wavered and choose her words carfully.
"No Sire, I am merly saying that I Have watch and also grew up along side Kat threw her life and I feel as a observer that there is merit in what Katheren is saying to you. She needs to expereance life before she can settle down and creat new life to raise. Surly you would agree"
Starrena, any other time I would head your words, but this time I would ask for your silence and that you leave us now."
"Father how could you say that to Star, she..."
"No, Kat I Shall honor the Kings request and will see you later. I shall uphere to the kings request," with that she turned and left.