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So, out of the blue, I volunteered to do the dishes. I know, I know, ‘…whooo?,’ right?
Actually, I enjoyed myself while doing them. Very nice breeze, sun wasn’t out (working all day out in the sun made this one appreciate it a little less) and jamming to some good tunes. And while washing them, my mind wandered…which leads me to feel like bringing this out.

First off, I think I’m generally down, even if it doesn’t seem or feel like it. I can’t remember the last time I actually I felt genuinely interested in something for more than a day. I can’t seem to get motivated, and I keep focusing on the negatives. I personally think I just need a good a** kicking.

…course, that could be coming from just me being a guy…

Secondly, I have a crush on another girl I met on the internet. That brings quite a few different problems, and a hell of a lot of emotions, not many positive. The worst thing about it though, is that I know I’m just going to stay quite and keep communicating with her like usual. Cause I’m just so manly like that.

Third, I was really annoyed with a good friend of mine who sounded like he was in a tight spot, mainly because I felt disappointed with him. After cooling off, I kicked myself and apologized. At least he seems alright…

And lastly, I really think I may need to find a new job. As much as I…’tolerate’ my current one, there’s no FUTURE for me there, especially if it just keeps escalating in pissing me the hell off…

…and that’s as far as I got before cutting my hand by breaking a glass. I would say it was because of my bad-a** strength, but… =/

There’s a song I happen to really like, and I listen to it often, even if it’s probably not good for me. The chorus goes…

“Sitting on the bed
Or lying wide awake
There's demons in my head
And it's more than I can take
I think I'm gonna roll
But I think it's kinda weak
Saying all I know is
I gotta get away from me”
~‘Gotta Get Away,’ Offspring

Anywho, if you took the time to read my little mental-examination-rant-thing, then thank you.