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-Friday, 10th of July, 2009-

Well, I'm back... My grampa is sick.. He's all coughy and sickly in bed and he's taking tons of medicine. But he's a tough guy, so he'll pull through.
My grandparents went to my aunt's place last weekend, 'cause it was her birthday. That's where grampa got sick.
They got back on monday. I had a physics test on tuesday.
From thursday until monday, I only slept 4 hours (3 of which were from 11am to 2pm on monday).
I could barely stand, let alone study. Thus, I may have ******** up my test.
I'm still pretty weak, get massive headaches sometimes, and my rhythm's all messed up. I don't feel sleepy until it gets light again and I sleep during the afternoon. At one point I kinda felt like I had no energy left in me... but just one more test.. just one more and then 5 weeks of pure vacation..
Then I've 5 weeks to get myself back into shape..
Right now would be a great time to have a girlfriend.. My heart needs another to get strength from.

I know nobody ever reads this, but that's okay.. I just felt the need to say something.

Life is hard. Unless you resist that pull towards the darkness, you'll get sucked in. And like a black hole, it's near impossible to come back out alone. I'm fighting, using my will to keep my head above water, to remain strong in the face of everything life can throw at me.. but, like any other person, I have moments of weakness. Moments during which all I want to do is let go and drift peacefully, letting the current of life pull me along.
It's during those times, especially, that I need to fight harder.
I know myself reasonably well by now.. and I know enough to know that once I start drifting, it's hard for me to start swimming again.. So I gotta keep going and I can't give up.

As my idol so often writes:
All life is precious.

This includes mine and it includes yours..
I will fight... What will you do?