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I can feel my anger rise when I see watch her from where I sit. I guess it's jealousy nabbing at my chest. she seems to connect easily with everyone but me. Why is that I wonder. She forces herself to spend time with me. I can see the distaste in her eyes when I play with her. She's my daughter but why won't she love me? I watch her and it seems that she'll treat any other demon as an equal all but me.I don't get it. I'm her father, but she looks at me like I'm a monster. Maybe I am. Did I do something to become something to fear. What did I do?
I'm sorry...
I-I'm sorry....
That's all I can think of saying. I'm a terrible father. I can't even become something that my own daughter can look up to. She looks up to both her uncles more than she will ever look up to me. Why is is that way?
I'm so confused....
I want to ignore this but I face it everyday.
Naoki... why do you almost always look at me like that?
I'd never hurt you
I just want to love you
As a father.
You're my daughter
I'm settling for your happiness, but it's not enough for me.
Call me selfish, but that's just who I am
I guess I'll just have to bear with this until your older.
Maybe things will get better between us.
Until that time I'll watch over you, like any father would. I'll bear the pain of seeing that look in your eyes. I can take it. It's worth it when I can see you grow.
I love you naoki....
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random drabble of doom it might not make sesne but oh wells! Keri's inner thoughts!! fear them!