I don't know why I've reverted back to such a sensitive state... For years I've been able to fight back the want to cry or for years I couldn't even make myself cry... but these days... I don't know... I just... *sigh*
I could probably give plenty of examples... Like when a girl I don't exactly like, came to our class with a problem... made me want to cry... I don't even know why. I used to be a really sensitive person; I'd cry at even the smallest things. But I got over that... I ended up at a point where I couldn't cry at all... but now... I just don't know...
Yeah, yeah... I'm probably just in another depressed mood... but I can't help it. I feel so ignored. I'm always getting ignored in RPs, mostly PMs... some PMs...there...well, at one point, I had two or three, going, but... I don't know. And all of the other RPs I went into have pretty much died... I know part of it is my fault... I kind of lost my train of thought for most of it... but one RP, I PMed the maker, and he never PMed back... not even a "leave me alone" or anything... Sometimes, I feel like I would much prefer that...
I guess I just hate being ignored... I've been ignored for a good portion of my life and I'm sick of it...but there's not really anything I can do about it... I just wish people I made friends with didn't ignore me... or at least people I thought I made friends with... It makes me feel like I've done something wrong, but I never know what it is, you know? No one will say anything...
Gah... now I'm sounding like such a whiner... *sigh* I guess I just needed to write it down... Maybe I should just do it somewhere else instead of here... Not like anyone will read it no matter where I put it... But I guess if I wanted to, I'd sound like I wanted attention...
... well, it's better than being ignored...
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