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I'm a coward. Now, let me explain and you'll see my point. I love to read. . .but, it's just an excuse so I can leave this world. I hate it here where everything is so expensive. . . .the worst part about this though, is that everyone...or some people at least...say that I am smart. No, Everyone please listen to me! I am not what you think I am. . . .I hate humans and life and I want to see everyone die! I want to see fire in the streets and children crying out for their dead parents. . .I want everyone to go away and leave me the hell alone!!! At the very least, I WANT TO DIE!!!! I don't care how many people will be sad. . .I just really REALLY hate myself. . .I CAN'T TAKE THIS ******** s**t ANYMORE!!!

No no.....that's not me....what I wrote.....that's not me.....that's Aaron.....I can't take this split-personality anymore.....I want to save my friends and end war....end pain....I want to....I need to....I just need to die.....I am sorry my friends but I am thinking about it.....I wanted to be your guardian angel....I wanted to be the one to guide you in the darkness....light your way......but what it comes down to is that I'm nothing more than a childish coward.....I do hate this world but I love certain parts of it.....I guess you can't see my point.....and this is all confusing you....Why can't I just say what I mean!?! WHY AM I LIKE THIS!!!!?

someone....anyone....kill me now....end my pain and I will forever be in your debt....at this point it can be called a mercy killing