Yeah... no story for the moment -.- I just felt I should get something out of my head before I depress myself again...
*sigh* I RP a lot... yes... I'm pretty much addicted. Well, when people started asking for PM RPs, I started signing up for them. They were fun, and sometimes they still can be. I know I like them.
But I've come to notice how many people have ditched me lately... No warnings at all. None. I went looking to see when the last time they were on; I have a bad habit of looking through people's histories -.- But I looked...and most of them have been on a lot recently... And I've gotten nothing from any of them. Not even an 'I don't want to RP with you anymore' kind of thing...
It's kind of depressing, you know? Makes me wonder if my RPing is really that bad... Hell, I was always forced to be the one to take initiative in half of them... they never actually led, they followed while I did all the leading. And then I was the one to get ditched... Some blow to my self-esteem, as low as it usually is, anyway...
Someone has to tell me... am I really that horrible? Maybe I should just give the whole thing up or something... Every RP I end up in dies...hell, I can't even start up my own RP... we had to re-recruite 3 characters for it.
*sigh* Maybe I'm just not cut out for it... Anyway... I think I've depressed myself enough for one day -.- I think I'll just end this and hope someone gets online to relieve me of my boredom...
o/` Tonight... I realize...this infection~ o/`
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Random randomness from the mind of a wierd little person.
That would be me.
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