"I want you to face the darkness...
because you're the one who can..."
So, here I am.
With the love of my life...
I've never been happier.
E.V.E.R.
BUT,
I miss talking to people I'd usually chat with:
Superior
Xaldin
Shiva
Rikku
They mean a lot to me.
More than they'll ever know.
I've slipped back into depression, and I don't think I'll
tell Axel. It's better off he he didn't know. I don't want to worry him.
I'm still having withdraws from my methamphetamine clean-streak,
and it's two months later... I'm finding it hard to live without it.
But, living without Axel would be 10x worse.
I'd give anything up for him.
He cares.
I know he does.
So, that's why giving up ice is better for me.
Besides, I have friends who will keep me sane.
I know they will...
((
But, if Axel knew about the craving, and all the crying I've done:
IT WOULDN'T BE WORTH IT...
((Thank you; everyone that has made me feel like someone on here, without you,
I'd hit it again. I appreciate your support. For those who didn't know I was addicted, please don't think any less of me...))
“You'll be fine. It might take a little time, but I'll take care of you.”