My Ex Boyfreind
It's weird calling him that even though i broke up with him like a month ago. He was my first boyfriend ever. We've been together for three years and i felt so bad breaking up with him but i know that it had to be done because i didn't feel the same way about him that i use to. He didn't look like the tall masculine man i hoped for in a boyfriend (he was only an inch taller than me an skinny) but he had the talents that i always hoped for. He could sing, dance, act, and he was funny. AND he was so nice and sweet and understanding. He was the perfect first boyfriend. At least that is what i kept telling myself to stay with him. I felt like he didn't do anything wrong so there is no reason for me to break up with him. But then i found myself being mad at him most of the time, and then avoiding him, and then... i could here in his voice and the way that he talked to me that he wasn't happy anymore with me. So then that's when i knew that it has to be over. I don't feel lonely caz i'm a very strong woman but i do feel his pain because i know how much he loved me. And i didn't notice this until i read a friend's journal but not only did i break up with a boyfriend, i broke up with my best friend. So that's y i dedicate this journal entry to him.
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