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as the weeks go by
I feel worse, then i did the week before.

I can't express the feeling inside...
at times I feel as though I want to cry, but I can't. I shed a few tears but that doesn't release the feeling in side. This feeling is different then from 6 months ago... it almost seem as though I don't feel nothing, but I'm feeling something. Empty? maybe... Broken? I don't know. stare

I feel so far away from the ones I care about... For brief moments I feel myself return. My phone is now on Hush hush or I turn it off so that I can't reach people or they can't reach me.

At home I feel so Loney... i normaly just hide up in my room, then I sleep for long periods of time.
I'm tired of making up storied to my parents about what I've been doing during the day.
I'm tired of filling out applications, I'm sick of looking for work.
I don't know if I really want to go back to AI... and I need to make up my mind soon.
Sometimes the thoughts in my head scare me.


I'm Lost, and not sure what to do now. sad