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Dedicated to all the people that were toyed with and used by the people they found as friends...
<center><i><b>IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WONDERFUL</b>
It was supposed to be wonderful.
It was wonderful.
It was nice.
Yes,it was very nice.
But it would be even nicer,
If it was honest.
"You are so cute",they said.
"You are so precious",they said.
"I want to keep you",they said.
They said,they said...And nothing besides.
Because these were only words.
It's so easy to type them.
So easy to pretend,
When there is no need to talk,
Look into one's eyes.
It was supposed to be wonderful.
It was wonderful.
But nothing lasts forever.
The soap bubble blew up.
"It's over",they said...</center></i>
 Kattie · Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 01:33pm · 0 Comments |
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Newest poem.Should be postedon Sunday,July 24...but whatever.
<center><i><b>TWO YEARS</b>
Two years...
Two years already...
Look how this time passes...
Two years...
This long I know you...
This long I search for you...
Search,search
And cannot find.
Look,how ironic.
Two years already I try
To make you notice me.
And you just will not give me any sign.
How cruel it is.
And so it goes.
But we will find each other in the end.
And my searchings will come to an end.
Till this moment
Let us search for each other some more.
Let us search for each other and meet
One beautiful day.</i></center>
Kattie · Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 09:42pm · 0 Comments |
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Kattie · Wed Jun 22, 2005 @ 01:27pm · 0 Comments |
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That's how I called this tree.This is also the title of one of the songs by Schwarz Stein...and my poem.Enjoy?
<center><b><i>FESTER LOVE</b>
Look at this tree.
It is gorgeous,is it not?
So green and healthy now.
And yet...
And yet we called it Fester.
Fester Love.
Because in Winter it looks just like our relationship.
Unhealthy.
This kind of things cannot be good,
Can it?
We both know how wrong it is...
And yet...
Yet neither of us can stop.
Don't you think?
It seems we both enjoy such things.
And yet...
And yet everybody says
There are no more innocent people
Than us.
How ironic,is it not?
But maybe...
Maybe that relationship is not as sick
As it seems to be.
Maybe fester love is not really fester?
But how can it be?
What do you think,
My love?</i></center>
Kattie · Mon May 30, 2005 @ 02:02pm · 0 Comments |
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Only because my inspiration is asleep again...Stolen from ~Ana-chan~ ^.^
1. First name? Kattie
2. Age? 18
3. Where do you live? Big house full of j-rockers,sharing my room with Kaya since recently^^
4. What kind of music you listen? japanese,of course...mostly j-rock^^
5. Favourite band(s)? Moi dix Mois,Malice Mizer,Schwarz Stein/Rudolf Steiner,Kagrra,...a lot more^^;
6. Favourite song(s)? too much^^;
7. Do you watch anime? not much crying
8. Do you read manga? even less...
9. Favourite movie(s)? Bara no Konrei,Phantom of the Opera,The Eye,Doll Master,Battle Royale,a lot ot movies by Hayao Miyazaki & Ghibli Studio
10. How much money you have? My own? >.> about...$155 ^^;
11. How much do you have in gold? a lot...that's enough for you to know
12. Favourite color? blue,black,purple
13. Do you have boyfriend/girlfriend? iie
14. What are you questing for? black and white clothes :3
15. What is your favourite game(s)? The Sims2
16. Favourite food? too much,not telling X3
17. Least favourite food? hmm...there is a kind of groats I dislike
18. Cats or dogs? I prefer cats,but I like dogs as well 3nodding
19. Do you like my avatar? hai!pretty!^.^
20. Do you like your avatar? I'm the female elf/mazoku happy Eddie thingie!I love it^^
21. Do you like bumping? not really,to be honest
22. Are you a noob?not anymore
23. or ? nyao?
24. Do you hate me? I love you,Ana-chan! ^O^ *hug*
25. Messenger or aol? I use both,but I like MSN more
26. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?both
27. Hot or cold? hm...warm 3nodding
28. Are you eating something? nothing at the moment
29. Are you eating me!? huh?NEVER!How could I? *snuggles*
30. Meat eater or vegaterin? meat *nods*
31. Goths or emos? Goths *proud* ^o^
32. Punks or goths? Both!^^
33. Tape or glue? uhh...safety pins? XD
34. Do you have periods? every month XD
35. Are tou girl or boy? girl
35. Do you sleep with a night light? no
36. Coca-Cola or Pepsi? neither
37. Do you like Britney Spears? *clings to Mana* NO!
38. Micheal Jackson or Janet Jackson? *gulps and clings to Mana even more*
39. Do you watch Simpsons? no
40. Finland or Sweden? I want to visit both (
41. Spoon or fork? Spork xd
42. Do you like free gold? why of course^^
43. Are having fun? yep,I like surveys
44. Do you have sisters? none real,but a couple of online
45. Bigsister or bigbrother? hmmm...one online big sister and one big brother that is a real brother of one of my younger online sisters(Hika-chan heart )
46. Are you stupid? rather silly XD
47. Are you crazy? I've been told I am XD
48. Are you christian? yes...but not a church-goer
49. Orangejuice or applejuice? orange juice ^__^
50. Mug or glass? mug...made of thick fayance
51. or ? nyao-nyan?
52. Can you drive? no
53. Do you like school? I don't mind it...I just graduated XD
54. Do you believe in stereotypes? *hisses*
55. Car or bus? car(buses can be evily stuffed >< wink
56. Apple or orange? Apple
57. Peace or war? Peace!
58. Book or magazine? book
59. How much do you have gold now? Still a lot XD
60. Color you hate most? barbie pink XP
61. Chocolate or vanilla?chocolate
62. Do you like milk? I do^^
63. What animals do you have? my dear kitty,Cat Monster Lucky Gardenia! ^O^
64. Do you know Renny Harlin? huh? Oo;
65. Bruce Willis or Arnold Schwarzenegger? both are fun XD
66. Sylvester Stallone or Jean Claude Van Damme? Sylvester
67. Glasses or lens? glasses
68. Do you have glasses? yup
69. Love or hate? Love(& peace ^__-)
70. 100 or 1000? 1000
71. Firefox or IE? Mozilla forever! ^O^
72. Pillow or blanket? both ^^
73. How are you? very well,thank you^^
74. What time is it? 8.20 pm
75. the Von Helson sister or Gambino? Gambino forever!
76. Gino or Gambino? both
77. G pin or V pin? G pin *nods*
78. shounen-ai or shoujo-ai? both
79. Japan or Chine? Japan
81. Do you like candy? very much^^
82. Is this getting annoying? not at all^^
83. Do you have life? Yeah,kind of XD
84. What are you afraid of? loneliness,being forgotten...ladders,crowds
85. Are you watching tv right now? No
86. J-rock or J-pop? J-rock
87. How do you want to die? being shot
88. Wood or metal? depends
89. Ugly or cute? Cute
90. 5 or 10? 10 (DIX!m/^o^)
91. Are you a virgin? Yes
92. Good Charlotte or Green day? both actually
93. Simple plan or Green day? both,why not...
94. Horror movies or Humor movies? Asian horror movies
95. Do you like icecream? Yum,yum! ^O^
96. Satan or god? >.> <.< Mana,Hora,Kami-chan! ^O^
97. Anime or manga? both
98. Nintendo or Playstation? can't tell ^^;
99. Mario or Luigi? mario
100. Done! How much gold do you have now? Still a lot XD
Kattie · Sat Apr 16, 2005 @ 07:25pm · 3 Comments |
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*bounces joyfully* At last!I wrote something new!Yatta! ^O^ *does the Yatta Dance* XD
Now...try to imagine a broken doll,for example a porcelain doll or a Dollfie...just note,it's a he.So,he's sitting in a dark corner,it can be a shelf,a closet,a room's corner...anything as long as it's dark there.He's sitting torpidly with a blank expression and his clothes are dirty and somewhat ragged.Ready?Here we go!
<center><b>BROKEN DOLL</b>
Music...
Everybody is dancing...
Everybody is having fun...
Can you hear it?
And you,poor thing,
What are you doing here all alone?
What happened to you?
Why are you sitting in the darkness?
Why can you not move?
Why are you staring blankly
Somewhere in the space?
Why can you not do anything else
Than blinking from time to time?
You poor thing,broken doll...
How lonely your existence must be...
There is even no-one to finish you off
To end your torment...
Someone is coming,do you hear it?
No,the steps are too silent.
Someone wants to stay here with you.
Look,someone is hugging you.
But you,poor thing,cannot feel it.
You poor thing,you cannot do anything.
But at least you are not alone anymore...
Poor broken doll...</center>
Kattie · Sun Apr 10, 2005 @ 12:45pm · 0 Comments |
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All I wish is to be able to write my poetry again...
<center><i><b>NEMO</b>
This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass
This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I`d give my everything
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore
My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh, how I wish...
Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go
Oh, how i wish...</center></i>
Kattie · Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 01:25pm · 0 Comments |
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Written today around 1 am,when I didn't feel good and I couldn't sleep.I was scared.Of what?I don't know,I was just scared.This is...calling for help...
<center><i><b>HELP ME...</b>
Help me, I'm falling...
Don't let me fall...
Hold my hand,
Don't let me get lost
In the darkness.
I'm scared.
Hold me,
Don't let me loose my mind.
It's so hard
To keep my sanity now.
Show me, how can I fly
With ragged wings.
They hurt so.
They bleed so.
So does my heart...
Please,help me,
Because I am not ready
To die yet...
Don't leave me now,
Because I need you.
Please,stay with me...
Please,help me...
Help me...</i></center>
Kattie · Wed Mar 02, 2005 @ 07:49pm · 0 Comments |
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Poem written last year...when I was feeling kinda down.Yeah...I wanna write something new... crying
<center><i><b>A SHADOW PERSON</b>
And so I maunder,
Like a shadow,
Following people
For which
I don't mean any more
Than just a person...
I delude myself,
That I am needed...
Oh,sweet naivete...
Well...
Sometimes it's more comfortable
To live and pretend
To be needed for real...</center></i>
Kattie · Tue Feb 22, 2005 @ 01:17pm · 0 Comments |
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