How do you tell your best friend/almost sister that the tradition you have held for years, of getting together every Friday the thirteenth, is not happening this go round? I just used my kitchen cleaning as an excuse. We'll just have to hang out tomorrow. Besides, another friend of her's is over so she won't be lonely. And she's got a cold so I'm safe. I am really aggravated with another friend. She must have repeated 30 times 'It's Friday the 13th' in a fairly annoying voice of hers that grated on my nerves. I have good reason for not being thrilled that I should be hanging out with my friend celebrating. Today is the 3rd anniversary of my grandmother's death and I was very close to her. But it was good in a sense that that did happen because I got to be so much closer to my grandpa when before her death I never really knew him that much. It is devastating that something like that was needed to bring a grandfather and his granddaughter together but it happened and that's okay. Now's when I say 'She's not suffering from disease, she's not in pain, she's in a better place, she's always watching over us' and all that but days like these, it's hard to believe and I'm still thinking that I will go to the house days I'm thinking about her and there'll she be but she's never there.
Grandma, you will always be in my heart.
RIP Carolyn Elizabeth Died May 13, 2002.
 Roxy Salmalin · Sat May 14, 2005 @ 12:15am · 0 Comments |
