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So, yeah. I'm a mostly gay 18 year old male(I say mostly, cause it wouldn't bother me to get with a girl...it's just not something I'm planning on at the moment.). Now, I've had one boyfriend...though he kinda decided to avoid me after he decided he was straight. This, of course, was after we fooled around a little...well, he was an idiot, but that's besides the point.

Now, recently, there has been a guy, a 21 year old, no less, that I was...starting to like, I guess. When we first started talking, he was trying to go after a 15 year old...girl. Yes, girl. And he had only been talking to her for about a year...over myspace...and she lives two states away... Anyways, he 'promised her his heart', and wouldn't have really anything to do with me, so I kinda just mellowed out, waiting for my chance at him..kinda like a beast waiting for his prey to become weak and wounded to go in for the kill(I will explain why I used that analogy later).

Well, she flipped when he told her he was bi, and she stopped talking to him. Now, this was my chance, so I started flirting with him...well, flirting more. Anyways, he was broken up about it, or so he told me, and wasn't ready for a relationship. I explained that that was fine, I don't need a relationship now. Then he said he 'didn't know me well enough to do that to me'....the idiot.

I found out...wednesday, I believe, that he was 'in love with his best friend of two and a half years, and plans to marry her in a few more years. Now, that just royally pissed me off. He hid it from me, cause 'he was afraid to say anything'. Good lord, people! You don't hide s**t like that from someone! Anyways, I let the idiot go cause you can't piss me off like that and expect nothing to happen.

Let's see...there was another guy, uber masochist, and flirted with him for a small while...but he was still obsessed over one of his exes, and didn't like to do anything where he wasn't dominant. I'm about 5'9", blonde, blue/gray eyes(depending on my mood), and built like an uke. In fact, I like being a bottom...but I'm naturally dominant in personality...kinda...I'm more dominant than the guys I seem to attract. Anyways, by strength and size, he won, but my personality and will were more dominant, and he didn't really like that...oh well. He's now engaged and trying to have a kid. I wish him luck.

I guess I should explain that analogy now...see, the um...'hornier' I get, the more...friskey and dominant I tend to be...like a dominatrix. I still am a bottom, but I tend to control the situation...so far. Still waiting for that dominant guy...anyways, turns out that I'm also kinda cat like, and tend to be a bit...animalistic. Yes, I like to bite...or nibble, depending on what the other person prefers, cut I still use my teeth on their neck and stuff...so I guess I'm...some kinda great cat...like a lion, or leopard...I like leopard, so let's go with that.

I guess...I just attract other ukes...or something...I dunno, I need to work on that, cause let's face it, I'm 18, sexually frustrated, and get so close to losing my virginity, then everything blows up in my face...and it's icky...

Ja ne...