bottled inside!
right now i dont know what say
i feel as if i cant even speak my mind out
every time i get my feelings hurt
i can never stand up for myslef
or else the other person gets mad
or trys to offend you more
or jus says tht theyre always right
i cant never say how i feel
cause all i have is fear
if i cant speak up to my friends
then who can i speak up to?
i have alot of promblems at home
now at school?
school was sopoes to be the place where i can speak my mind off
without being judge
but whatever i say
they all jus judge me as emo or whatever
i hate bottling up my feelings
it eats me alive
i might not cry in the outside
but in the inside im screaming
i try to smile and pretend all the s**t you say to me
doesnt bother me
but you know what
im a person
and it hurts that i cant tell you how i feel
i get putdowns from family now i get them from friends?
i dont want that
why dont you jus put a bullet in my head
and say goodbye
you dont know
how it feels having less confidence in yourself
cause of alot of shti being hit towards you
no this isnt a ******** BEAUTY less confidences s**t
im talking about confidences knowing you can talk to your
friends without fights and judgement
why do you think im emotional
cause of all the pain i receive
if i dont have friends that understand
then what do i have?
i have alot more to say
but i feel as if i can speak nomore
or we might start war
jus kill me now so one less girl
who is in pain
can jus leave this
place in peace
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.....................it takes one bulet and only one.............................................
i know this pain doesnt ryhme but it shows how i feel........... stressed cry
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