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I know I don't write much in here but I guess a little note to everyone. I love you all and today, the day before the 17, is my last day before I am married. That is right. I am getting married, on St. Patrick's day! Much drinking will ensue I'm sure. Anyways, I just wanted to say that I love you all and will not be on for a week in case anyone cares. stare

So yeah! *HUGGLES FOR ALL!!* heart 3nodding heart

And hope everyone stays safe if not good too. 3nodding

Love much!
Bats heart

OK, Yeah, so I'm bad with online journals.. stare

Anyways.. sweatdrop
So this is kind of what has been going on with me for the last... I dunno, year maybe.. sweatdrop stressed
1. So, last year, July 29 I found out that my dad died. He had skin cancer and so it was good that he didn't have to suffer anymore. No one has to try to tell me anything b/c I would rather not hear the same thing(s) that I have heard for about the millionth time.
2. That was before I moved in with my friends. I was very happy with them. ^.^ They are a great pair and I wish them the best of luck! I actually moved in June ('06) XD to live with my fiancee. And yes, I have become engaged. ^.^ heart I am very happy etc yay! And so also my ex-roomies are going to move to CO, that is also why I wish them the best of luck! (They're b/f and g/f and I think he is going to propose soon, just dunno when...) (To those of you who did not know that I was engaged, I am sorry for not telling you, it was either something I forgot to tell you or didn't know how to. stressed sweatdrop Sorry for being such a dumbass with that.. stare )
3. Recently I have been having a hard time. I feel incredibly lonely and I don't really know how to tell my friends who now live far away from me that I miss them so incredibly much and that I would love nothing more for them to call me or msg me or to come visit me when they can. I know this shouldn't be something that should be hard to do, but it has been because the truth is I feel abandoned. I feel like I put in a lot of work into it b/c I am the one calling/msging. I am the one driving to go see them or trying to see them when I am in town and lately I have been kind of flaking b/c I don't really feel like I am needed anymore... cry I don't know if this makes any sense, but It's just hard for me to tell someone that is very close to me.
4. I also feel very sad b/c I don't feel like my family supports me in my decision to get married. I don't feel like they're happy for me either. But I don't want to go into that.. stare
5. Something that I just found out too is that my great aunt died just a few days ago... crying I wasn't very close to her but I did know her and I did/do care for her and love her and so I am sad b/c she died.
6. I hate school... XD Anyone else!!!? blaugh sweatdrop So yeah, I am trying to take Spanish and it's almost past halfway through the semester and I'm just now remembering, or starting to, the stuff from all my other Spanish classes... Then again I did take like a yr or more off from college, but yeah... stressed And my other class is just kind of a blow off.. but I need to do the homework to actually do better.. stare I hate homeowrk.... scream

And I think that's about all that's on my mind right now... Well, the big things anyways.. I hope that this may help people who know me understand why I've been so messed up lately.. sweatdrop heart heart heart So I will try to stop hiding out ninja and not being all... dare I say it.. emo AGH!!! I hope I'm not ebing that... It would be so bad.. stressed

So yeah.. domokun

Friends and Family: I love you all heart
Everyone else: Take care. Sleep happy and dream safe. 3nodding (That's from my friend from a game I play that takes up way too much of my time!!! ) sweatdrop

Ok, well.. Happy Holidays for one.. Two, sowwie for not posting much right now.. Lots of stuff..
1. Moved in with my friends from work and it's pretty cool right now. I have my side and they have their's of the apt. And they aren't too loud either.. wink (I moved in with a couple.) xp
2. I have a new b/f who I have known for years!! It's fun! ^.^ We don't have to worry about all that new crap of getting to know each other and whatnot, b/c we already know and we already know that we care about each other so it's all good! ^.^ *is very happy!! Gives cookies to everyone!!* heart blaugh
3. Work is going well. I am now a trainer.. no more money, but it looks good for the paperwork and with the higher ups so when I get my 2 yr review, I might get more money!!! ^.^ Yay! xd
4. Family came down for the holidays and I got to teach my cousins everything that my aunt and uncle don't want them to know! ^.^ It's been fun, and I dun have to stay there at night!! I get to go home and sleep! Yay! blaugh

Anyways, That's is what is going on right now. I dun think there is a lot of anything else. I need to go back to school next semester, but that's really it.. sweatdrop

So yeah, Take care everyone! ^.^

So.. a lot has happened in the past few months but recently I have staretd to move into an apartment! blaugh I am so happy and excited! whee So I think my comp will be one of the last things I move, but yeah.. sweatdrop A lot of stuff is gone and I have to move my bed and shelves and some clothes and that's it! blaugh I am so happy! xd
I think it will be a good thing although I am a bit scared and my two roomies aren't going to be out of their room much.. stare but I think it's about time to be out of my mom's house and into a "place of my own" !! ^.^ 3nodding

ok, lots of things...

1) Work.. it takes a lot out of me b/c there is a lot to do, sowwie...

2) B/f & friends... They demand a lot of my time.. ^.^''

3) Me... I just haven't been online b/c I don't think about it a lot anymore...

4) My dad died... I don't really care about being online b/c of this. I am upset, sad, and not nice to be around sometimes right now, so yeah.. deal with it... xp

Thanks! blaugh

laters..

Bat_Angel

So..

Deli work is normal I guess... we have a new team lead hich is good I guess.. He hasn't screwed up lately.... stare

I am tired as all hell and I feel like I have issues. But who deosn't these days right..? sweatdrop

Anyways, sorry for being so absent. Guess that's just me...

Night night! 3nodding

Well.. I really have no excuse for not being on.. Except for being tired.. And When I have come on Gaia has been under maintenence or I just check my mail and then go to sleep... sweatdrop

Anyways, Today will be my 9th day to work in a row... And like all of the days have been like 7 to 8 hr days... gonk omg... That makes someone really tired really fast!!! But I have two days off on Friday and Saturday... blaugh That should be good. Oh well.. I dunno what else to say right now.. *floats off humming a song...* xd

Kamikaze Con was so great! I loved it so much! I wished it would not end! Anyways, I am home now... crying And I have to work tomorrow.... gonk Reality can be a sad sad thing... But oh well.. Sorry, I'm tired so this will be very short! xp So good night! xd

YAY!!! blaugh

Tomorrow, well, today really, I will be going to Kamikaze Kon! Yay! I am so happy! That and I should be getting a big paycheck from working 40 hrs this week and next week! Yay! blaugh Today was a good day! Long, but good!

*yawn* ^.^'' I will be sleeping now and see anyone who's going to be at the con, at the con! ^.^