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My foot steps were silent as i made my way to him. With the weapon in my hand i stood there quietly behind him. He heard my breathing and turned around.I drove the giant knife through his heart and watched him fall to the floor.I stood there ,knowing that he was in pain,and laughed.blood flowed from his body and soon there was nothing but a pale lifeless pile of flesh that i would no longer have to live with.I stood there and stared at him and thought about why i had done what i had done and knew right there that i would never regret my decision.
I awoke in shock from my nightmare.I looked around my room and everything was normal.My dream had been so completly accurate,my feelings for the person that i had murderd in my thoughts was the same feelings thats i had had from the day i had turned two.this person was my father.he said that he cared when he really didn't. he never did anything to help and i could run to no one else.My mother died when i was really young and ever since ive been living with my dad.I had no friends because my dad just told me that my purpose in life was to take care of him.I went to school and did my homework,then after the long day at this prison they call school i had to go to work to provide for me and my dad .I was only fifteen and worked like a person that had no future .Oh wait...i had no future.Then one day it all changed when we had a new kid in school.the teacher tourcherd him by making him introduce himself in front of the class.He refused and the teacher scolded him.He made his way to the back of the class and sat down in and empty seat next to me.Of course he tried to make conversaition with me.
"hi my name is Mark"he said softly so the teacher wouldnt hear.
"Hi im kylee."
Mark raised his hand to ask a question and his jacket sleeve slid up.he had cuts,deep cuts all the way up to the middle of his arm.his hand came down in an instant when he thought the teacher saw them but i dont think he knew that i did the same thing.I had been to counsiling six times and had been held in a mental hospital twice. thats the one reason why i had no friends was because everyone thought i was crazy.
When class was over I went about my day as usual not thinking that i would ever run into mark but we had almost every class together which sucked because he was always talking to me.I wasnt much of a talker and spent most of my life by myself,my only real friend was my mother when she died it was like my whole world went black.Well i decided to be a little nice to mark because with his type of personality people would run from him like little kids run from the spider in the shower.he sat with me at lunch, but no one ate , he talked but i didn't. I learned that he was into the whole devil 666 thing which i thought was pretty cool.His mom died when he was born and his dad left him so now he lives with his grandfather.he asked about me,what i liked ,what my family was like.i told him every thing that he wanted to know.I could see the hurt in his eyes as i told him about my life that i couldn't stand.it hurt to talk about it which is why i never did.a tear rolled down my cheek.
"stop...im sorry i didnt know that talking about your family would make you cry." "its ok.....well i have to go to class i'll see you around" Which i hoped i would never run into him again of course i knew that i would.
That night i had a horrible dream.i was running through the woods in the middle of the night.i was trying to catch my mother but it seemed that no matter how fast i ran i could never reach her finally she vanished into thin air and in her presence stood and ugly creature.it had talons that were as long as my arm it slashed open my chest and blood came pouring out of the open wound in my chest and i fell to the floor.i gripped my bed sheets and i thrashed in my bed.i awoke in a cold sweat and was breathing like i had ran a marathon.i couldnt take anymore of the nightmares and me being sad all the time wasnt helping. i tried to be happy,but everytime i was somethis would always take it from me.
The next day at school was...i dont know how to explain....but i was excited to get there and i knew why. one word ,Mark. We talked at lunch and i learned alot more about him.like he likes to do photography and he plays piano.im not gonna lie,i liked mark,and ever since i met him i have been a little happier.
"hey kylee' mark called to me in the hall
"yea whats up"
"i was wondering if you would like to go out on saturday...you know to take your mind off a couple things what do ya say?"
"yea i'd like that"i said biting my lip
"cool"
he walked down the hall and into the locker room.there was feeling that i have never had before.it was like my stomach was all fluttery and i couldnt help but smile.but all i knew was that it made me feel better.like a weight was just lifted off of my shoulders.i closed my locker and then went into the gym.
i liked gym class cause it gave me a chance to run around and think and let some energy out.there was one girl that i talked to and kinda considered my friend.her name was Riley but we only talked in gym because that was the only class we had together.she was the only person who didnt think i was a freak.see i wasnt all wierd and creepy.i didnt wear all these black clothes and dark makeup all the time.i had some color.i wore concert tees most of the time.but what made people run from me was they new about my cutting problem,but i had been through alot.my mom died and my dad.....well hes a douchebag.
Mark walked into the gym.and sat down on the bleachers.i went and talked to him.
"hi" i said
"hey"he replied.
"can i ask you something" he said to me
"sure"
"i always wanted to know...if you hate ur dad so much...then why do you live with him"
"im scared.im scared that if i leave that he will hurt me."
"well if you dont leave dont you think he will hurt you."
"yea but i dont know its alot more complicated than you think.after tonight im gonna be surprised if i ever live to see tomorrow."
"why...what happened"he sounded concerned,and i liked it.
"i quit my job yesterday.i have been saving money and i have enough to go to a university one day.but my dad wants me to work so i can take care of him.but he gets money anyway because he got hurt one the job ,he blew out his back and has trouble walking sometimes.but im tired of living just to please him."
"wow...thats brave of you...are you gonna stand up to him and tell him what you told me"
"i dont know" i said "im afraid that if i do that it wont go well."
"well i will help if you need it"he said.i smiled and wanted to hug him but i didnt.
"so are we still on for saturday"he asked
"sure"
"cool meet me at the park at 7"
the week went by kinda slow and saturday.i was getting ready to leave when my dad came up stairs.
"where do you think your going"
"umm...im going out with this new guy that i met at school"
"i thought we agreed that you wouldnt have any friends....and besides arent you supposed to be at work" he looked angry.i started to feel sick but i thought of mark waiting for me at the park and i wasnt gonna keep him waiting.
"im not at work because i quit,i quit because you need to get a life and realize that i have other things to do,and im going out i with mark because i like him and your not going to stop me."
i grabbed my coat and started to walk out.he grabbed me by the arm and flung me around to face him.
"you will never talk to me like that again and you are not going anywhere"
"yes i am"
i tried to break free from his grip but it just kept getting tighter and tighter.
"no your not you defiant little b***h."
i spit at him and he backhanded me.i could taste the blood running from my lip.i kicked him and bolted downstairs and stumbled out the door.i ran as fast as i could away from the house.i ran to the park to find mark sitting on a bench under a street light.i stopped in front of him.he looked up at me
"oh my god kylee what happened."
"i did it i stood up to my dad and this is what i get"i was freezing i had left my coat in my bedroom.
"i cant go back there i cant and i dont know what to do or where to go."i shivered and sat down on the bench.he took off his coat and wrapped it around me.
"im sorry its my fault i never should have asked you to stand up to him alone"he said to me.
"no its not i dragged you into this its my fault"
"why dont you stay with me."
"no i couldnt"
"sure you can my grandma would be totally fine with it....besides you cant go back and we need to fix your lip"
"are you sure?"
"yes 100%"he smiled
"well lets go...i need to get out of here before my dad comes looking for me.
he took out his phone and called his grandma.she came as quickly as she could.
"oh dear you poor thing are you ok"
"no not really"i said
"lets get you inside so we can fix you up."
when we got to his house his grandma cleaned my lip.i sat on the couch as they talked privatly in the kitchen,but it wasnt very private cause i coud hear everything they were saying.
"why would someone do such a thing to a poor innocent girl."
"her dad isnt the greatest so she says but i cant have her go back there and get hurt again" mark said quietly."can she stay grandma please"
"of course she can its no trouble...but where will she sleep."
"she can use the guest room"
"oh yes i forgot we had one of those we never have company."
mark walked into the living room and sat down next to me on the couch.
"she says you can stay."he smiled
"thank you"i couldnt help it i hugged him and surprisingly he hugged back.
"this was some date "he whispered.
"yea...i guess i owe you a movie."i said
"wanna watch one....do you like horror movies i have lots."he said softly
"sure i'd like that" we sat on the couch and watched movies pretty much all night.
"you scared...."he laughed
"no"i said
"that sucks....i kinda needed an excuse to hug you."
i got those butterflies again as he wrapped his arms around me.i fell asleep in his arms,and thought,this was the most exciting thing in my life to ever happen.



When i woke up it was dark it took time for my eyes to adjust,when they did i realized we were still in marks living room.Mark was lying on the couch right next to me.i moved a little and i felt him hug me.he cuddled up next to me on the couch.
"what time is it"i whispered.
"i have no idea" he sat up and looked at the clock on the wall.
"its 3 o clock" he said
"in the morning...how long have we been asleep" i replied.
"not that long...you fell asleep halfway into the movie"
"im sorry im just tired"i whispered
"thats ok" he smiled. "wow ur lip heeled kinda fast."
"yea but it still kinda hurts"i said
"im so sorry i had no idea this would happen." he apologized.
"mark its fine its not your fault...i should have seen it coming but something good came out of it."
"what good could have possibly came out of this...look at your face,your lip is busted"
"yea but if i would have not said anything to him i wouldnt have gotten to see you and i probably wouldnt be here."i smiled.
"so your glad this happened?" he asked.
"hypothetically yes"i replied.
"you looked really tired"
"i am and im cold"
"well there arent any blankets in the guest room my grandma wants to wash them first so how about you go upstairs and sleep in my room and i will stay down here on the couch"
"that sounds good but....im kinda scared to sleep i know its impossible for my dad to find me here but im still scared"
"ill go with you"he offered.
"are you sure you wont get in trouble."
"nah if my grandparents ask ill just explain that you were scared they'll understand."
"thanks"
i stood up and he walked me upstairs.the upstairs was really big and confusing.he took my hand and led me into his room and shut the door quietly behind him.he turned on the light and my eyes burned from the sudden brightness.
"sorry"he said
"wow..i like your room"i said
"thanks...after you"he said guesturing to the bed.i crawled on the bed and laid down.mark went to go turn off the light and he came and laid down next to me.
"some first date this was"he said.
"i .....liked it"i said
"can i tell you something"he asked
"sure anything"i said
"your the first girl i ever liked....when i started talking to you in biology i didnt think that you would ever talk to me outside of class."
"you...like me"i stuttered
"yea i think that your cute and that you have a very different personality...your not like everyone else and you dont care what people think and i like that."
"wow thats the sweetest thing that anyone has ever said to me....to be honest your the first guy i have ever talked to that wasnt a jerk...and i like your eyes they say alot about you."
i rolled over to face him.
"so do yours"he said smiling."i know this is all happening fast i mean i just met you monday and here we are in my room."
"but im glad what happened happened the way it did" i had only known mark a week but all i knew was that i liked him alot and i didnt want this to end.
"i...i want.."he stuttered.
"you want what"i asked looking up at him.
"i want you to be my girlfriend...i know its like wierd but your the first person that i feel like i can be myself around...and your the only person i know whose smile can make me get butterflies every time i see it"
"i would like that...alot" i moved closer to him and snuggled up into his chest,he held me in his arms and there in the darkness we layed until i drifted into a dreamless sleep.
i had another nightmare that night.i was sleeping in marks room he had gotten up to go get a glass of water.when i opened my eyes there stood my father in the corner of marks room.
"i thought i told you that you couldnt go out tonight"he grabbed me and tried to pick me up.i kicked and thrashed and screamed trying to break free.then i heard my name
"kylee,kylee wake up it ok its me"mark shook me and i woke up.i was breathing heavily and crying.
"it ok..your ok nothings going to hurt you." he held me close to him and tried to get me to calm down.
"im sorry..im sorry"i whispered.
"its ok...hey lets go downstairs and get something to eat."he helped my up and we walked downstairs his grampa was cooking breakfast.
"well whos this little cutie."he exclaimed
"hi, im kylee."i said.
"hey gramps can i talk to you in the living room for a second." mark insisted
"yea sure"
i assumed they were talking about why i was here and what had happened the night before.
"well you can stay as long as you need to" marks grampa said when he walked into the kitchen.
"thank you sir" i said politley.
"please call me jim....do you like pancakes."
"yes sir....jim sir"i said
"hey...wow its snowing outside"mark exclaimed.
"really!"i ran to the window.snow came down and covered all of ohio in a blanket of white.
"wow...its beautiful." i said softly
"hey...um i need to go get somethings from ...my house...i want you to come with me.my dads never home on saturday."
"yea sure no problem.i wouldnt want you going by yourself anyways."he pushed the hair out of my face.
"thanks...but lets eat first."
"ok"he smiled and we sat down at the table.we ate.he finished before i did.i took my plate and went to wash it off in the sink.when i rinsed off the plate water splashed all over my shirt.
"great this sucks."i said
"relax you can borrow one of my tshirts."we went upstairs and he grabbed a shirt and a coat out of his closet.
"here...im gonna go downstairs when your ready will leave k"
"k"
i changed and put on his jacket.it was big but warm.i went down into the living room.
"ready?" he asked.
"ready"i answered. my house was kinda far but we drove his grampas car.he was a safe driver and i trusted him.we parked down the street and got out and started to walk towards my house.i took a deep breath.
"its ok"he held my hand and we walked into my house no one was home but we didnt want to be here when someone showed up.we went upstairs,Mark watched out the window while i packed.i packed all my clothes.i didnt have much but i had a big suitcase so it was ok.
"hey we need to leave. i think your dads home." we panicked and grabbed my suitcase and my coats and went downstairs through the back door.
"wait" i ran back in side.
"kylee no what are you doing"he tried to grab me but i shook him off.we ran upstairs i went into my room and grabbed the picture of my mom off the shelf.
went we got downstairs my dad was in the kitchen.
"well i see you came back"
mark stood by me protectively and took my hand.
"im not coming home...ever"i said we started to walk towards the door.my dad tried to grab me but mark wasnt having it
"dont touch her...leave her alone"
"or what ....what are you going to do to me f*****t."
mark let go of my hand and decked him in the face.my dad fell to the floor and mark and i ran to the car carrying my stuff.
we drove back to marks house and brought my stuff upstairs into the guest room.Marks grandma was putting up a shelf and clearing some stuff out for me.
"thank you ma'm....but you didnt have to do anything i could have done it"
"please call me Lucinda and its no problem."
"hey why dont we go outside and enjoy the snow"Mark offered.
"sure....let me change into some new clothes and we'll go."
i went into the bathroom and changed.i put on my coat and my beanie hat.i put on my scarf and stared at myself in the mirror.this scarf was my mothers she had given it to me before she died.i left the bathroom and walked down the hall.i heard Mark and Lucinda talking.i stopped and listened.
"thanks for letting her stay grandma"Mark said
"anytime darling....i dont want her getting hurt and shes a very respectable young woman,shes very sweet and im glad that you have met someone like her.besides i can see how much you care about her."
"well we're gonna go outside and enjoy the weather."
"ok you have fun now"
i walked into the room and put my stuff in my suitcase.

"ready?"he asked
"ready"i answered.
on the way downstairs he grabbed his camera off the coffee table in the living room.we walked together to the park.the trail was covered in snow.we ran around and we even made a snow man.he took a picture of us laying down in the snow looking at the sky.i told him that we have to frame that picture because i liked it so much.
"this is fun"i said smiling.
"yea"he replied taking my hand.i refused and bent down in picked up a snow ball and threw it at him.he laughed and did the same.i ran and he caught me and we fell and plopped down into the snow.i looked up at him and moved his hair out of his eyes.he smiled.he tilted his head down and kissed me softly on my forehead.i looked at him.he kissed me again.this time i pulled him closer.he kissed me softly in the snow.he stopped and looked at me and smiled.
when we got home his grandma was excited to show me the guest room...or my room now.while mark and i were gone she went out and bought curtains and i bed set.i loved it.the curtains were dark purple and the bed set was black and purple dots.
"wow i love it its amazing thank you."
"your welcome sweetie.hey i hope you dont mind i put this picture in a new frame,the old one was falling apart."
she had taken the picture of my mother and put it in a silver frame.
"no its ok i like it thank you."
she smiled and went downstairs.mark came into the room.
"wow it looks amazing in here.do you like it"he said hugging me
"yea its awesome i love it"
"good then i helped this was all my idea"
"whatever"i said laughing.
Alot happened that weekend.so much that i forgot we had school on monday.But Mark and i had something exciting happening that day,we got to take our driving test.ill admit i was nervous,but so was everyone else.I was also trying to make the best out of school considering we only had 3 weeks left until winter vacation.
"so are you ready for the big driving test today."Riley said to me in gym.
"oh...uh yea kinda"i replied.
"whats the matter."she asked
"nothin i just got a lot of stuff on my mind."i said
"do you need to talk.."
"yea..."
we walked over to the bleachers and sat down.
"for starters...i moved out of my dads house"i began
"wow really thats great where to."
"i moved in with mark"i told her.
"the new kid?"
"yea...we're sort of a thing...hes really nice and we care alot about eachother...im just kinda nervous being here at school afraid that my dad could come and get me." i explained to her what happened and how i ended up living with mark.
"wow your dads a real douchbag..did Mark really punch him.
"yea...my dad dropped to the floor and rolled around like a baby."
"well everythings gonna be ok...it looks like Marks got you well looked after...hey you have a cell right."
"yea but i dont use it that much.."
i handed it to her and she put her number in.
"call me if you need anything."

gym ended and school was finally over.mark had to go get something out of his locker so i waited for him outside.i noticed a familiar car pull into the parking lot.it was my dads.i felt lump form in my throught.i turned to walk back inside when i felt a hand cover my mouth i tried to fight against it but i couldnt.he draged me into the car and shoced me in the back seat.
"help!!!!"i screamed,but we drove away to fast.i was so shocked and in fear that i didnt know what to do.i looked in the drivers seat to see my dad driving,he was drunk i could smell it.the overpowering smell of beer and whiskey took over the entire car.i screamed and lunged towards the front seat and tried to grab the steering wheel, hoping to swerve to draw the attention of a cop or something.my dad hit me and i flew into the back window and everything went black.when i woke up i was in my old room with duct tape around my mouth and my hands tied.i didnt know what to do so i just cried.i heard my dad coming up the stairs.he walked into the room opened the door and slammed it against the wall.
"im tired of you defying me"he walked across the room and ripped the tape off my mouth.it burned .
"i hate you...your a good for nothing jerk who only cares about himself.he kicked me hard in the side and i doubled over in pain.all of a sudden i heard a noise first soft then loud coming from my dads shirt pocket.it was my phone,and it was ringing marks ringtone.
"oh look its your boyfriend"my dad said coldly as he answered and put it on speaker.
"well hello there"
"where the hell is kylee"mark said angrily.
"oh shes fine wanna talk to her."
he walked over to me and put the phone to my mouth.
"say somthing"he said
"kylee are you okay where are you"mark said worried
i couldnt think of words too say and i couldnt speak.my dad slapped me and i screamed.
"there you got to talk to her.my dad hung up the phone and set it on the floor and crushed it into pieces.
"why do you want to hurt me....why do you even care that i moved"i cried.
"he didnt answer instead he pulled out a gun.i started to plead and cry.i heard the front door burst open and footsteps come up the stairs.the sounded too loud to be one person.two cops came through the door with mark behind them.
"drop the gun"the police said.
my dad turned and pointed the gun at the one of the cops.
"sir...drop the gun"the cop said through his teeth.
my dad backed up and pointed the gund down towards me.the other cop took a step forward and my dad fired the gun.at the same time both cops fired at my dad shooting him in the chest.he fell to the floor.
mark rushed to me and untied me.i wrapped my arms around him and hugged him close.he did the same.
"are you ok ma'am"one of the cops said.
"yes im fine.before i knew it there were cops and ambulances everywhere outside.they were ther forever.mark didnt let go of me once.we sat on the steps of my hoouse.they finally let us leave,after questioning us.i told them about my dad and how i was living with mark and his grandparents.they gave us a ride home and explained the incedent to lucinda and jim.mark and i were up late and i was tired.we ended up falling asleep on the couch.
the next day we stayed home.i didnt want to since todays was the last days of school for a month,we let out for winter break.when we woke up we were in marks room.i quess somtime in the night he carried me upstairs.i was tired and i didnt want to get up but i had to i was so thirsty.i climbed out of bed,careful not to wake mark.i went down stairs and there was a note on the fridge from lucinda.
"hey,jim and i went up to the jail to hear about what was going on .we will be back later."
i wondered what they could possibly want to know but i didnt worry about it.i got water and then went back upstairs.mark wasnt in bed so i figured he went to the bathroom or somethin.i climbed back in bed.i started to fall asleep again when mark came into the room and laid down next to me


i will post more tomorrow..im going to start posting everynight until i feel that the story should come to an end.starting now im going to put a line or a big space in between every new post so that people who have already read it can read more with out skimming through the whole thing trying to find out where they left off.
please comment i would greatly appreciate it.
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