As of a few weeks ago I began school where tough times were soon to approach me. I am in those tough times now. I'm struggling to hold on to my A/B, but I don't know how long it will stay there before it drops to a C. After surviving one year in pre-AP, I chose to stick with it. It's difficult, but I have a plan this time... to do my homework.
In such cases, my brain is frying. For the last week, I've had a cold, I've begun driving, and my mom wants me to try harder at playing the violin. I have to put more effort into all of this and in turn, give up my free time of computer usage, drawing, and chatting to my friends. I wait for the first vacation to arrive, the first break. I yearn for it. I call to it. Let it free me. My friend gets that sweet sigh of relief every Friday when the bell rings, knowing that she has over 48 hours of refreshment, subtract her homework time. When her happy moment runs off, I think in my head that it's only two days and school is back. Not enough time.
Every Friday, however, is a return to school for the football games. What Joy! seriously, we have fun. Our way to show school spirit in the band... go us. I'm shooting for first chair this year... (geek) yes, I know. No one wants to let Rachael get first again. She acts too cocky, too smug, like she's perfect.
On top of school work, violin, and church bell choir, I have a social life. I'm trying to help my friend talk to her crush. There seems to be that moment for all of us, I'm sure. Anyways, she's afraid he'll hate her. (note: that's the problem with crushes. There's a chance they'll crush you.) Back to the case, I have that to think about. I also have my self social life with my secret crush which will remain secretive amongst all who know me for the time being.
My mom's in Hawaii right now as well. She was bragging, but she honestly doesn't want to go I think. She wants to go in the sense that she wants to pay her respects to her recently deceased cousin whom fell off a ship and... you know the rest. This is near Honolulu if not in Honolulu. She's actually from Ka'u of the big island.
I'm hoping this journal entry will set my mind to peace when I lock up my free time. When I say goodbye to my internet friends... I will return one day though (don't count the next several days when I sign on for a few minutes for email and stuff) I'm almost scared that I'm growing up too fast... I'm going to be doing community service in a few weeks at the hospital.
I miss video games...
-A nostalgic lover
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