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Please let me let it out.

I feel shitty.

I feel like people have been throwing rocks at me for years.

I these small unhappinesses are wearing me down.

I HATE my life. I don't hate people, I just HATE myself and my life.

Basically this is what I'm going through right now:

-Am currently not passing 10th grade for the 3rd time
-Am not allowed to call friends anymore because of my 500dollar phone bill because I was lonely
-Am considering going into the Air Force I doubt my parents will take it well
-Can not hang out with friends because I only have one good one that lives near me but she's too busy with her job.
-Has not life, nothing to wake up in the morning for
-No sense of self-worth
-Is a caged miserable annoying squawkity bird

I can't even put up with myself at this point.

I'm angry every day now.

I constantly think of slitting my wrists and wiping them on the walls, and just telling them that's how they make me feel.

So yeah thanks for letting me vent.

I know my mental illness is not new and is apparently not going away anytime soon.