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My Mom is sufforcating (I always feel like crying when i see her anymore). My Dad is cheating on her and doesnt give a care about me. (makes me angry when im near him). I cant cry in front of them or else they will take it as an advantage. I can only cry in the shower or at night.
I dont sleep anymore. Im developing eating disorders.
Im addicted to cutting myself.I am depressed. My mom says i cant have friends cause she couldnt in HIGH SCHOOL. The inner thoughts are a horror movie. It keeps crying and screaming for help. But no-one comes.Its becoming almost impossible to live.I dont know what to do. At night my heart literally is in a sharp pain.IM LOSING MY MIND. WHAT AM I GONNA DO!!!! IM SOOOO LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crying crying crying