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I thought it would have gotten better but it only seems to get worse. Words are swirling in my head and i am sick of their sadness. crying I just want to be happy but my heart is heavy. I feel completely emo and i am not. Ask my friends i am a happy person just not right now. Off to cry myself to sleep, again. sad sad crying crying

I have no idea what to write so i will write what is in my heart. My heart is aching enough that I can't really think of anything else. WHY???? Why did i have to give him up? I know why but it hurts. (I am not talking about a boyfriend rather my horse he's not mine anymore though.) Have you ever felt like your heart has been ripped out of your chest and you are watching it die?? That is how I feel. Bailey, my horse, was really my life. God he's gone I just can't believe it! (No, he didn't die.) I had to give him up because he was unsafe to ride but he was the sweetest horse! In my head I know that it was right to give him up but in my heart it is death.I see myself with him when i close my eyes. The way i could rest my head on his. He had a heart shaped mark on his head and it always made me smile. Even on the worst of days he made me smile. I miss him licking my hand and how he looked in the sunlight even those days when he was caked in mud. I can see him running with his tail high and head higher. Bailey sweet heart you will always be in my heart.I love you till the mountains tumble down. May you run to the ends of the earth.